Mothers wisdom keepers

27/02/2024

My beautiful Nelson died 2 years ago. I went through hell with him for 4 month in hospital and back. I was with him when he left 💎 Would I change something of almost 10 years? No not one minute. One thing I would have done! That day Nayeli came to hospital the first time, I didnt kiss you to say goodbye. I felt sick and didnt want to pass an infection. I regreed not to have kissed you for the last time. And still I know it might gave us some more days before you choose to leave us and this world 💚💚💚

25/10/2023

09/10/2023

The moment, when I felt something changed. Also the way I grief changes. Today I am able to listen to the music that Nelson played daily. And I was able to enjoy the music again and dance like we did before! Still I miss you sooooooo ...

07/10/2023

I sometimes want to share so much with this world and trying to find those words, I start to fall in silence. My life is so magical and full of intens and beautiful moments. Everything that seems easy, is super complex at the same time. All darkness it brings it also holds as much light. Today on easy saturday I woke up with a baaaaaaad mood. Really bad. I hardly was able to connected to my kids and I just cleaned and cleaned the house. Today on an easy saturday just cleaning the house I dealed with the grief of losing my husband, realizing that hope is impossible because I allready found the love of my life, I bitterly cried and my two kids huged me to calm me down, my closest friends called out for me, I made new plans for my life, I worked on selfesteem issues, chated with some interesting man, cooked tasty food, cared for our cat and also connected to a beautiful woman, that was my angel in March this year walking along the habor of Baltimore crying like baby because I miss Nelson soooooo much that my heart still breaks over and over again. And I speak this out to show that even on easy days we always create and every moment holds a chance to release and grow.

18/07/2023

I cant wait!!! New Basektball projects are coming. Fingers crossed that all my visions are gone be manifested.

18/07/2023

I am so blessed to live in this amazing and beautiful nature. Other people come here for holidays. I am allowed to swim everyday in those beautiful lakes and rivers. This year is my favorit sport "bathing naked". Yes I know that is no real sport 😉

02/07/2023

Those last days been filled with some high energies. I wake up with my heart feeling the loose of Nelson and I fall asleep in high sensual vibes. Para llegar a dios hay que aprender de ser humano!!! (To reach god, you have to learn to be human!!!) I am learning that the wounds we carry are the treasures that we suppose to find. I am here to collect them and guide those who trust me deep into there own chamber to find their own treasures. Whats your mission in life?

26/06/2023

I proudly present Me, Myself and ! 40 and blessed!

15/05/2023

Walking with my 4 year old son through the new village we just move to, means to get more wishes on every corner we find those dandelion. So here I share a wish of those with you. Blow the dandelion and as Nikan my son would say: "Now you can wish what ever you want!"

15/01/2023

03/01/2023

When the wound is open and I can dive deep! This is after smugging me with palo santo and feeling all feelings that had to be felt. My gifts have never been gone 🔥

26/12/2022

Die letzten 4 Wochen wurde ich reich beschenkt. Ich durfte in meine beiden Ahnenlinien so tief tauchen, dass ich mir all meine Ängste anschauen konnte. Dabei zeigte mein Körper heftige Reaktion. Ich unterstütze diesen immer noch laufenden Prozess mit einer Öffnung meiner Füße ür 21 Tage und mein Körperbewusstsein kann sich entladen. Immer wieder kann ich in heilende Momente durch die "Innere Kindarbeit" gehen. Zu Weihnachten, also am Heiligabend, bekam ich ein unerwartetes Geschenk. Ich fand eine Kiste mit meinem letzten Tagebuch und vielen Fotos aus meiner Kindheit und Bildern auf denen ich Anfang 20 war. Mit 39 wurde mir bewusst, dass die Beziehung zu mir selbst in allen Etappen gestaltet werden darf und so konnte ich zum Fest der Liebe 3 Stunden auf eine Reise zu mir selbst gehen.
Die Ilona die ich am meisten liebe, habe ich verdrängt und verbannt, denn sie zu sein, heißt die Frauen (Mutter und Schwestern) in meiner Familie in ihrem Selbstwert zu kränken und es hieß viele Jahre auch eine wirkliche Gefahr für mein Leib und meine Seele, denn Gewalt war bei uns daheim Normalität und Alltäglichkeit. Heute jedoch lerne ich mich zu entbinden und die Konflikte nicht mehr in mir weiter zu tragen und zu nähren. Die Angst und das Trauma vor der Gewalt verlassen mein Körperbewusstsein ❤💚💛❤💚💛