18/02/2023
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💜 I agree with this. However, trauma does hurt. And we do get traumatised!
I’m not minimising trauma here, I know trauma too.
Let’s say a child of 2 falls over, and someone’s there to pick her up, clean her knees, hands and wipe her tears, she learns that she’s safe.
The next time she falls she gets the same help and support.
She falls again and this time she manages to wipe her own tears.
This is care and resilience.
Now, a child who’s going through the same. Falling over, no support, no comfort, no acknowledgment nothing. She learns at 2 (breaks my heart) to pick herself up, wipe her own tears.
S/he learns no one is there, no one cares, she’s on her own in the world.
This was me, and many many other survivors. 💜
For me, I learned to minimise, detach, then dissociate and I created ‘mummy’ in my head, to help me, remembering I’m still 2!
This is how my dissociation started.
The abuse I endured was from birth to 15. Physical, sexual, emotional neglectful. This is not poor me post, this is factual of a child growing up with no support or kindness.
I have DID, I have a internal system my forever inside family. There’s no such thing as integration. They’ll always be there perhaps less dominant and less lost time, but they’ll be forever there.
My internal family, and treasured by me and I am truly grateful that my mind at 2, started to create a safe forever family. I call them my RainbowCrewe 🌈
Dissociation is feared, it’s widely medicated and mostly ignored. Attention seeking, factitious disorder, personality disorder, borderline personality disorder etc.
NO dissociative identity disorder which of course isn’t a disorder at all, it’s a child’s survival coping mechanism caused by trauma. 💜 🌈
