23/04/2018
ادعوله وادعولهم وادعو لك مريض
WOW the response to my original post in Arabic was out of this world in less than 24 hours!!
I had to sit myself down and translate it to English below – Thank you all !
In the name of God I begin
ده اول پوست بالعربي في الپيچ هنا... بسم الله:)
نداء الي القلوب الرحيمة:
- عصير الجزر اللي خفف عمو محمد جوز طنط عايدة جارة حماتك من المرض الوحش و قضا علي السرطان نهائي مجابش نتيجة معانا، بلاش لهجة الاستغراب الرهيبة دي في ليه "مجربناش" الحاجات الطبيعية لما ابننا جالو سرطان. حضرتك الدكاترة شخصيا اتخنقوا مننا من كتر الوصفات الطبيعية، انا قربت افتح فرع العطارة الهندية هنا في امريكا.
- الميا الالكالين كترها بيجيب بكتريا منيلة بنيلة - اوعدك اني بحميه بيها بس فهمت حدودي يشربها قد ايه
- لا مش كل السرطانات بتتعالج زي بعض!
- لو حتقولي ان السرطان اسمه (المرض الوحش) ياريت متتكلميش معايا عشان نفسي بيضيق، احنا بنشتمه عادي و منخافش لا منه و لا من اسمه
- اه بنقول لزين كل حاجة عشان ده جسمه و من حقه يفهم و عشان لو فقد ثقته فينا يبقي رحنا في داهية و عشان خمس سنين كتير قوييي ....ففيلم متقوليلوش عشان ميزعلش ده مش منطقي!
- ونبي ياخويا انا زيي زيك بكره الكيماوي و العلاج و مبخدش نسبة فلوس من الدكاترة يعني فياريت لهجة الاستنكار الغريبة دي (هم ليه بيعملوا كدة في ابنهم) بقت بتضحك... علي اساس اننا عندنا اوپشن؟
- لا فشلت في ال(مديتاشن) !!! كل مجرب اربع رجلي و اشغل مزيكا هادية و اعمل فيها (زِن) و كدة... الروبعوميت صوت اللي في دماغي بيرغوا في نفس الوقت. عندك پوزيتيف انرچي؟ ابعتهولنا... ويي اكسپت دوناشنز:)
- ايوة مؤمنة بالحسد جدا بس و لا عمري حقتنع ان اللي احنا فيه ده عين. ربنا كبير قوي و جميل قوي معقولة يعني نضعف لدرجة نشكك في قدرته و رحمته؟ معقولة نضعف و نخاف نفرح لحسن نتحسد؟ فيه فرق رهيب بين (واستعينوا علي قضاء حوائجكم بالكتمان) و ( اما بنعمة ربنا فحدث) يعني احنا ربنا يدينا تلات معجزات و بدل ما نشكره اخاف و اتقوقع؟ بدل ما اقوله شكرا علي الرسالة و المسئولية اللي ادتهالنا ...اجري؟ بدل ما افكر نفسي بقوة الدعا و اطمع و اترجي معجزة كمان ... اخاف؟ نو ميرسي..!
- المرة الجاية طنط مني تبعت تقول لفافي تعمل تاج لنانو عشان تبعت مسج لام زين تقولها ازاي تحضر نفسيته لل(ترانزيشن) عشان يموت في سلام - اه و النعمة- حد يقولها تقوم تدخل و تشوف سلام الناس و جمالها في الدعاء من جميع انحاء العالم بتدعي لطفل مشافتوش عشان ربنا اولا و قدرته علي التحمل ثانيا و اخيرا ابوه و امه اللي مسكوا مشاعرهم و واجهوها كدة و قالولها - امك!-
- اعرف ان كل مرة بتسمع فيها عن علاج اشتغل و تبعتهولنا انت بتاخد ثواب... الاحساس بالغير ده نعمة و احنا بنشكرك عليها. ادعيلنا بس نعرف نفلتر كل ده و نفضل اسوياء
- اه المرة دي صعبة و كل مرة اصعب من اللي قبليها و اطول و بتحتاج نفس اطول و صبر اكتر و الواحد تعب ... بس ربنا مابيتعبش.
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- احنا مش بنقاوم الموت علي فكرة... احنا مش بنقاوم ارادة ربنا... احنا بناخد نفس طوييييل و بنقاوم عدو عنيد قذر بيحاول يعيشنا في خوف مستمر من بكرة و يسرق مننا نعمة النهاردة....كلنا حنموت! و رجاء و طمع اي اب و ام في الله و هما راضيين بقضائه انهم ميشوفوش اليوم ده في ولادهم ابدا.... معركتنا لن تتوقف ان شاء الله و باذنه.
- السرطان بقا جزء من حياتنا كده عادي، زي طلع الزبالة و انت خارج و هات لبن و انت مروح ....بنتكلم عالورم بقا حجمه قد ايه و نطلع صوره و احنا قدام التليفزيون زي اي مناقشة عادية. احنا "نورمال" متبقاش انت "وييرد" حوالينا پليز:) متخافش تكلمنا، متخافش تسأل و اوعي تخاف تخرجنا من المود! احنا في عرض اي فن و فرفشة... زين مش مُعدي و احنا متجنناش - لسة علي الاقل 🤔-
و اخيرا و انتو بتدعوا لزين ادعولنا احنا كمان انا و تامر عشان احنا استوينا... علي مقوم اعصر شوية جزر علي جنزييل و ادعي زين ميتفوش في وشي و يقاطعني. 🙂
In the name of God I begin....
- That carrot juice that totally cured your mother in law’s neighbor’ husband from the (evil disease) Aka cancer… did NOTHING to us, as in nothing! So that “shocked” tone of yours asking why didn’t we try natural stuff to help our son through cancer is ummm not necessary! We literally tried everything in the book, even the doctors call me the “hippie mom” that’s how much I smell like essential oils and try natural recipes daily – true story! -
- Alkaline water is awesome! Trust me I know that cancer grows in an acidic environment but I also know that too much Alkaline water causes some horrible bacteria... I learnt to moderate
- No! Not all cancers are the same nor are they treated the same way!
- Yea I have no patience when it comes to giving cancer different names other than cancer! If you are too scared to call it what it is and will title it (the bad disease) (the evil disease) or whatever disease you desire… let’s not talk! We have no shame calling it, cussing it and making fun of it as well
- Yea I hate chemotherapy too! Grateful to conventional medicine but not a huge fan of its side effects, trust me… I don’t take a cut from the doctors nor do I get paid to have my son be a number in yet another clinical trial, but your tone while questioning “why do we do this to our son and expose him to that much harm and toxicity” is disrespectful! It’s not like I have a choice. It is stage 4 cancer, so guess what… we are going after it with every possible way.
- Ummm yup we tell Zein everything! We are fully aware of his age, He came out of me you know! It is his body though! He has every right to understand what is going on, and the moment we lie to him and pretend everything is hunky dory he will lose trust in us, and if this happens… well we are screwed! It’s been 5 years, which is waayyy tooo long! So no! telling him it is a cold or a regular disease is not realistic
- Me and Meditation don’t mix! I tried! I promise! But every time I find my quiet spot, take my comfortable position, play my relaxing music… suddenly the 400 voices in my head find their way to start a conversation together all in the same time. I can’t ZEN… but if you have an additional flow of positive energy feel free to send us some… we accept donations
- Yes, I do believe in bad eye! I am a Muslim and it is clearly mentioned in our Holy book the Quran, but allow me to explain that your translation to it is not accurate! I strongly and utterly refuse that what we are going through is a result of some weak soul who jinxed us or gave us the bad eye! I am sorry… God is bigger than this, God is more merciful than this… for me to believe that my son getting cancer for the 4th time is due to a bad eye... that is just me disrespecting my faith! And I love my faith! God gave me three miracles before! Three times where I was told I can lose my son and yet he is here, and yes, I will ask for a fourth one... he is generous and maybe just maybe he has another one in store for us. I refuse to be scared just so I don’t get jinxed! I refuse to live in fear believing that someone out there might send me some negative vibes causing my son’s fourth cancer… God is bigger! Stronger and more powerful than this!
- Oh the next time that sweet auntie texts her friend to tag her other friend to find Zein’s mom and send her a message about how to “prepare Zein for the transition to his death” – true story!!!!- Umm please tell her to take a peak on his page and the hundreds of thousands of strangers who are praying for him without meeting him. What transition? What death? Fighting cancer doesn’t mean death girl! And who said we are fighting death anyway? Zein is here because of God first, Zein's spirit second and two parents who literally faced their fears and their emotions and told it to BACK OFF... if you are still with me, please keep reading
- YEs we are tried! We are very tired... And it gets more tiring and exhausting every time... but you know what? God doesn't get tired- and we choose to remind ourselves of that
- Know that every time you hear of something that worked out there with cancer and passed it to us, you just earned a good deed. Thinking of others and having empathy is a blessing and we thank you for it, we just ask you to pray for us that we can navigate through all these options and stay sane.
- We are not fighting death! We are not fighting God’s will! We are fighting a disgusting and persistent enemy! One that tries so hard to constantly make us live in fear, one that steals our daily blessings and planting seeds of worrying about the future…So understand that when we take a deeeeep breath, roll our sleeves up to fight yet another fight… it is our way of staying strong, it is our way of being up to the challenge and the responsibility that God gave us. One day we will all die, no way around that! But as parents, we have every right to beg for God’s mercy and ask him to not let us live this with our own kids… and if we have to… we will deal with it then…. Until then… we fight!
- Cancer became a part of our life, you see …. Just as we talk about taking the trash out or picking up milk on our way home we talk about cancer! We pull the tumor picture off of our phones and have a normal conversation over dinner or during TV time. We are “normal” …. So don’t be “weird” around us please Zein is not contagious…and we are not crazy – yet - so don’t give up on talking to us, asking us questions and getting us out of the mood! We are in dire need for fun and happy moments.
While you pray for Zein please pray for Tamer and myself too as we are drained! Now excuse me as I go juice some ginger and carrots for Zein, crossing my finger he doesn’t spit it and give me “the look”
