05/03/2026
Accepting coexistence
The sun is shining, the ocean is alive, so am I.
Sitting here at the beach, connecting to my body and quieting the mind.
I find peace in the simple things, witnessing, noticing what's going on inside and outside.
I used to think: Once I try hard enough, life will give me more grace,
happiness will flow through me, no matter what place,
as if it was the one big promise, we're all here to achieve: how to find peace?
I am happy, I am safe, I am loved and I do, I do, I do - love.
After three months of moving closer to the sun, and step by step back, or rather forward, to myself, I am deep in duality.
A duality I once thought - must be a contradiction.
This morning, I left the beach returning home feeling sad, yes, I felt an ambivalence of feelings.
Shouldn't I be filled with joy, I asked myself,
after having done Yoga in the sun, at the beach, returning home to a nice place, a loved one.
I have come across coexistence as a concept in many ways. In an anthropologic way, a spiritual one, and only now it has really crossed my personal path.
Just at the right time, I am learning: In every feeling we feel: you can find all the other ones. We're here to witness them all, acknowledge small moments of happiness while grieving the state of the world.
Holding hope at our fingertips, while baring a gut wrenching hurt.
knowing this hope has fallen in the past, and will fall yet again, only time can tell when.
This too belongs and will always be there. Every feeling deserves its own special care.
I used to wish for only some to be felt, not knowing how the uncomfortable ones need to be held.
Dear coexistence, I no longer only know the concept of you,
you’re finally one, I deeply feel to be true.
