03/03/2023
I've spent years untangling, working through and finally accepting various depths of emotions around what I now know all pointed to 'Unexpressed Grief'
It catches you out in the oddest of ways at the most inconvenient times and of course the easiest thing is to shut yourself away and avoid getting too close to anyone by building imaginary walls around your heart in case you land up loosing them too.
Unexpressed grief has a significant impact on our mental and emotional health, the fear of being judged or rejected by others, the fear of appearing weak or vulnerable so others avoid you as they don't know 'how to be or what to do or say' - wearing a mask becomes a part of your existence - until one day you just know its time to start truly living & loving again.
Recognising that grief is a process that everyone deals with individually is important. The common theme though is the deep sense of a deep sadness & void within that no external fixes can remedy. Then the guilt of being 'too happy'.
The effects of sadness, anger, guilt and various other emotions left unexpressed can cause anxiety, depression, isolation and even show up physically as headaches, insomnia & digestive issues.
Acknowledging too that its not just loosing a loved one - grief can be triggered by a range of events, a major life change, choosing to end a relationship or accepting someone else's decision that may radically change your life.
So - if its your time to truly heal, go within, let go and find the peace and acceptance that resides within you I can assure you its worth it - its not forgetting who you loved its acceptance of how much love you have, how strong and courageous they helped you become for getting this far.
Its a journey I've been on for years and can possibly help you with too - the choice is of course always yours ❤️💜❤️