05/05/2026
****Trigger Alert****
Last nights post has brought about a lot of conversation offline with a few people and I felt I needed to be a bit more curious of my own experiences as someone who has self harmed and my experience as a parent/carer and supporter of children who have self harmed.
There’s a kind of fear that comes with this that’s hard to put into words. It’s not just worry, it’s that deep, gut-level panic… the “what ifs” that creep in when you’re trying to sleep, the constant checking, or trying to check and the second guessing everything. It can feel like the ground has shifted under your feet and you’re trying to find something solid again.
For many parents, there’s also this sense of grief. Not because anything is lost, but because things aren’t as simple or as safe as you thought they were or could/should be. And alongside that comes guilt, even when there’s no real reason for it. Your mind tries to join dots that don’t actually connect.
And for children and young people, it’s just as scary in a different way. Admitting what’s going on can feel overwhelming. There can be shame, confusion, even fear about how others will react, what it might mean about them and how they will be seen or treated.
For me, my reason for self harming was because physical pain was easier than emotional pain…. There was a reason for my pain, and something I could connect with instead of it being in my head. At times I felt it was like punishment for being such an awful person and believing my self worth to be so low it was non existent. This is my experience and everyone is different.
Sometimes young people don’t have the words, so it comes out in behaviours instead. Anger, moodiness, withdrawn, over criticism, change of the clothes they are wearing, locked doors, shorter fuses, and generally just becoming harder to read….
These are also normal age and stage behaviours so don’t think just because this is happening they are self harming.
So what often happens is both sides are scared… but in silence. Parents trying not to make it worse. Young people trying not to worry their parents. And that gap in the middle can feel huge.
Gently and tenderly opening that space, little by little, is where things start to shift. Not big, heavy conversations all at once. Just small moments of honesty, even though it feels vulnerable, of being alongside each other in it.
It’s scary, yes. But it’s also the beginning of understanding. And that’s where things can start to change.
Again if needed I am here.
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Graham 🧡
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