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20/09/2019

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13/09/2019

The morning after I killed myself, I woke up.

I made myself breakfast in bed. I added salt and pepper to my eggs and used my toast for a cheese and bacon sandwich. I squeezed a grapefruit into a juice glass. I scraped the ashes from the frying pan and rinsed the butter off the counter. I washed the dishes and folded the towels.

The morning after I killed myself, I fell in love. Not with the boy down the street or the middle school principal. Not with the everyday jogger or the grocer who always left the avocados out of the bag. I fell in love with my mother and the way she sat on the floor of my room holding each rock from my collection in her palms until they grew dark with sweat. I fell in love with my father down at the river as he placed my note into a bottle and sent it into the current. With my brother who once believed in unicorns but who now sat in his desk at school trying desperately to believe I still existed.

The morning after I killed myself, I walked the dog. I watched the way her tail twitched when a bird flew by or how her pace quickened at the sight of a cat. I saw the empty space in her eyes when she reached a stick and turned around to greet me so we could play catch but saw nothing but sky in my place. I stood by as strangers stroked her muzzle and she wilted beneath their touch like she did once for mine.

The morning after I killed myself, I went back to the neighbors’ yard where I left my footprints in concrete as a two year old and examined how they were already fading. I picked a few daylilies and pulled a few weeds and watched the elderly woman through her window as she read the paper with the news of my death. I saw her husband spit to***co into the kitchen sink and bring her her daily medication.

The morning after I killed myself, I watched the sun come up. Each orange tree opened like a hand and the kid down the street pointed out a single red cloud to his mother.

The morning after I killed myself, I went back to that body in the morgue and tried to talk some sense into her. I told her about the avocados and the stepping stones, the river and her parents. I told her about the sunsets and the dog and the beach.

The morning after I killed myself, I tried to unkill myself, but couldn’t finish what I started. —Meggie Royer



painting by Adam Tan

25/05/2019

Decided to join the rock painting and wood slice painting phenomenon lol xx
Will varnish and hide most of these but will be adding some to the kindness basket for my clients in my therapy room ###
The rocks were a gift from a lovely lady Jessie on the page xx
we all need a lift sometimes and the therapeutic effects from doing this and finding them is one of the best forms of self care I have found ###x

14/05/2019

11/05/2019

14/11/2018

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06/10/2018

I see you in my unkempt appearance, in unanswered phone calls and messages sitting unread
I hear you in the little voice that says "it's all too much" "you are so very tired, go back to bed"
I smell you in my excessive smoking, in my house that needs to be cleaned

Everyday I stand and I face you,
You seem to be so much bigger than me at times, but I face you and I shout you down.
This is how everyday will begin
I will stand and I will face you.
This is why, you will not win.

I know who you are,
And I am calling you out.
With neither hushed tones nor quiet voice
I will shout and scream till everyone knows your name
You see,
I am not new to your little game

I know when I talk about you,
You become so very small
You retreat until,
you are barely there at all
I chain you in the furthest corner of my mind,
like the monster you truly are
But I know when I fall on difficult times
That you will never be far

You will try to consume me time and again,
each time I will face you and put you back in your chains

I know I don't deserve you
I know that no one does
I know if I let you win,
You will take me from the people I love
And then in turn, in them you will grow.
No.
You cannot have me,
nor anyone I love.
We will fight you together and alone
We will fight you both in the darkest times and in the happy times too
Until you see there is no place here for you
With our army of kindness and compassion, you will see we are so strong
Depression ....
I will not miss you when you are gone

30/07/2018

Think for a moment ..

What did we do without a mobile phone?
What did we do without social media?
What did we do without video Calling?
What did we do without data?

Guess what we did? ...

WE HAD A SOCIAL LIFE!!

We weren’t ignorant
We weren’t interrupted constantly
We weren’t so easily distracted
We weren’t isolated

Mobiles can be a good use, yes, but if you think about it? we’re all guilty of being ignorant & getting distracted easily. If we spent less time on our phones & more time with the people we love & making memories then we’d enjoy life far more than to worry about a Facebook post, a twitter post, or snap-chatting everything.

People, including myself think when they don’t have their phone with them they’ve lost an arm, I’m not saying don’t take it about with you because you may need it I case of an emergency, all means answer the call/text back, but when you’re in company of others & you don’t need it, then don’t be ignorant and start browsing through Social media. It shows a sign of you being bored in their company & you being down right sheer ignorance.

People show that they have better relationship with their phones nowadays than they do other people. They’d rather be on social media, than socialise with their family/friend/loved one. Stop isolating yourself from everyone!! You miss moments in your life because you’re distracted by your phone, concentrate on your life. Use it when you need it, or when you aren’t in someone else’s company.

17/05/2018

~ You are the one,
whom you have been waiting for,
who will rescue you,
and become the greatest hero
within your own life story.

You are the one,
whom you have been waiting for,
who will become the greatest lover
of you, that you will ever find.

You are the one,
whom you have been waiting for,
who can take the right actions,
that will bring everything to you,
all that you could ever need and
desire from this life.

You are the one,
who sees, feels, touches and brings
all goodness, that can be experienced
in this life,
much deeper into yourself.

You are life, growth, change, creative,
love, light, freedom,
You are the light in the new day ~

17/05/2018

Comedy .... one of the best ways to brighten up your day
A laugh is a fantastic medication xx