07/04/2026
So I lost the whole of March this year to illness, old patterns had crept back in and even though I was aware of it I wasn’t doing anything about it until I was left with no choice. The universe decided I was only going to listen if it put me on my arse again and now I have to rebuild my health and so changes need to be made.
This photo is from 8 years ago, 3 years after my first health collapse and here I was really well, I mean probably the healthiest I have ever been and that is where I need to get back too, obviously this time I have been well and truly placed back on the spiritual path I had wandered away from and I have the added complication of the menopause!
So what did I do this week?
I decided what parts of my life are most important to me. The you can do it all and have it all myth perpetuated to women when I was at university is deeply imprinted. Yes you can but something will always have to give!
I looked at my work and realised I was spreading myself so thin that some things need to go so that I have the energy for what really fills me up. So instead of keep going with things I had committed too and have been doing for years because I feel I’m letting people down if I don’t, I let them go with love, grace and gratitude and the change was immediate.
I can instantly see a clear path ahead, I know the time pressure I have been under will be less meaning that I can nourish myself and I can apply myself wholly to the things that I am focusing on.
Yes there is a little sadness, but instead of just thinking it’ll be ok, I got this and carrying on, I broke one of those lifetime patterns and took the first step to getting back to the me in this photo.
The first steps back have been big ones and it feels great!
