My_Bipolar_My_Boy_and_Me

24/05/2022

These little buggers filled up my gallbladder! So gross and I’m so glad it’s finally out! 🤢

Hopefully I will be pain free and able to eat normally again 🤞🏼

25/04/2022

How true is this? If I believed all the crazy things I think up on a daily basis God knows where I would be now!

I haven’t really posted anything for a while as I’ve been on a difficult journey the last 6 months. A mixture of highs and lows that I’ve been rapidly cycling through. Things are looking a bit brighter now and I’ve managed to stay stable for a few weeks. I hope you are all doing ok 👌 ###

30/03/2022

Today is World Bipolar Day!

Mental health has many faces - for me my condition is mostly stable. I’ve not had a really serious episode for over a year. I am thankful everyday for this.

We should never suffer in silence - spread the word and keep the conversation going!

11/01/2022

I have definitely got the January blues 😞 I have no motivation to do even the most basic tasks!

😴

02/01/2022

I won’t let my medication mess with my weight anymore! I was feeling like utter s**t!! Now I am sleeping better and I am starting to look at myself in the mirror again ❤️

I still have a long way to go but I will try my hardest to get to my goal 💪💪💪

02/01/2022

I wouldn’t want to be perfect, I am completely honest and I say what I think! It can get me into trouble sometimes 😳 but I deal with it. Never ever stop being yourself - it’s what makes you who you are, imperfect but wonderful ❤️

22/12/2021

09/10/2021

29/09/2021

Life tips!

21/09/2021

How true is this at times! I can literally shut my door on everyone and everything when I am having a low episode. It’s savage! But it’s how I cope.

**t

10/08/2021

Always ###

02/08/2021

Missing you. Always xx

01/08/2021

27/07/2021

Happy 1st birthday to my gorgeous boy!

🎈

08/07/2021

I’m just sorry. To everyone I have let down. I’ve not been in a good place for a long time.

I’m done with the falseness and facade that I put on for everyone - I am not fine. I am unhappy.

07/07/2021

I was called lazy today 😞 to be honest I’ve not been ‘right’ for weeks, but to be called lazy is harsh. Despite my lack of confidence, the crippling anxiety and self loathing I have for myself at the moment I still get up every morning. I make sure my boy is ready for school and I turn up to work.

No one sees the battle I have in my head before any of this happens. So NO I refuse to accept being called lazy! Drained and tired of this mess in my head - but not lazy!

28/06/2021

😂😂😂😂😂

***ff

30/05/2021

Look after yourself, I have felt exhausted today and needed to sleep 😴 I’ve eaten junk food and been kind to myself ❤️

30/05/2021

Still going strong! Well mostly 🤣

❤️ ❤️

20/05/2021

Memories!!! This has made me smile today ❤️

The way my boy is looking at his Grandad - they have a bond that is unbreakable. They are best mates! My dad, my boys best mate = our hero
💙 ❤️ 💙

20/05/2021

Feeling tired 😴 looking rough - but I am still here, facing another day.

It still shocks me sometimes how I can be feeling so good and fighting fit to feeling low and exhausted. Its been 8 years since I was diagnosed, yet it still doesn’t feel ‘real’ if that makes any sense?

10/05/2021

This.

01/05/2021

I’ve been so s**t at looking after myself. I’ve put on weight - I’m the fattest I have been in my life.

my skin is awful, my hair is ratty and thin, I am smoking more than ever and my body is suffering. I genuinely do not know where to start but I know I need to start somewhere 😕.

One thing at a time - starting with the weight. I’m going to make myself accountable for the crap I eat. Try to stop the comfort eating and tell myself that I can do it and I will feel better.

30/04/2021

Think I need to declutter some s**t. Something is going on but I am not sure what.

The thing is I have been there and done that - I know what to look for and I’ve learned to trust my gut.

27/04/2021

When you are feeling good. Hair done, make up on and you’ve faced the day like a boss!

Days like these are worth fighting for, feeling good, feels good!

**tdonetoday

25/04/2021

It’s a s**tty day today too much booze last night and I took my meds late! I’m tired, got a thumping headache and I’m snapping every 10 minutes 😩

Why do I drink - I know that I suffer after! It’s all or nothing for me and once I’ve tasted that first drink 🍹 I don’t know when to stop!

I need another weekend - eurghhhh Monday tomorrow.

12/04/2021

It’s ok to have a day off and recharge. The world won’t stop and it can also wait.

Be kind to yourself, you know what your mind and body needs. Listen to them xx

09/04/2021

Me on Monday! 😂😂😂😂

08/04/2021

I am slowly starting to like the person I see in the mirror. Some days more than others, but it’s a start!

I have felt quite low for the last few months, a mixture of things but mainly the loss of my Nan - losing her hit me hard. A lot harder than I let on to people.

Even though I have the best dad in the world, I still struggle to accept that I have lost the female role models in my life.

As a woman who is nearly 37 😩 I didn’t think I would feel so cheated by losing both my Mum and my Nan. But I do!

It’s accepting these feelings and facing them head on that has helped me see some light in the last week.

02/04/2021

Happy Friday ###

28/03/2021

All of these ❤️ some days more than others though!

24/03/2021

Don’t be a jerk! It’s not attractive!

22/03/2021

This!!!! Got me through the first month of lockdown - I loved it!

Who doesn’t love a crazy, gun wielding American! 🤣🤣🤣

20/03/2021

My names Sam - I am diagnosed with Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder. I am a mum of a gorgeous son, I work in Marketing full time and I have a little side hustle selling FM World products.

I do all this everyday - hiding the lows and the exhaustion I feel at times. Playing down the manic phases and rapid cycling when I feel like bursting!

Bipolar is part of me - but it’s not me!!

17/03/2021

Feeling more human today! Had my AZ jab and I’m not going to lie I haven’t felt well at all, but it’s lifting, it’s like a mild form of Covid - when I had it in May I was fighting to breathe and every part of my body felt like it was on fire. A few days in hospital and I was home. I never ever want to go through that again.

✔️

14/03/2021

First one done! My arm is sore and I feel a bit shaky but so far so good.

12/03/2021

My boy is my world 🌎 life would be very different if he wasn’t in it.

12/03/2021

This made me chuckle! 😂😂

07/03/2021

I’m not going to let my Bipolar win again! The last few months have been tough. I have given in to it a few times and almost lost control and headed down the wrong road.

Staying strong and focusing on my life and how I am going to make it better for me and my boy xx

💪 💪

09/02/2021

Love my crew!