04/04/2026
4/4 Portal ⭕
4/4/26
Today I learned of the passing of my mother,
she was like no other—
for I only ever thought I had one birth mother.
I do not ask for sympathy
I do not grieve
For five years I've been estranged—
I set myself free from my narcissistic family, you see
Both my parents conditionally loved me.
I was an unwanted pregnancy,
because of this, my parents had to marry in the 1960s.
I feel so sad for this—
a tragedy,
Not a true love story.
My Nana—
I felt she unconditionally loved me and brought me up until I was 3
I understand she found it hard to love my mother,
and only loved my uncle,
my mother’s brother
Hiding behind Mum’s smiles
were lies words of bitterness and disguise,
but I awakened—
It wasn’t just me she despised.
She saw me happy wild and free,
my name—Helen—bright light,
blinding her eyes.
She was married to my father you see
Four years later, my sister came along.
She was the golden one,
could do no wrong.
But my sister was jealous of me—
this my mother couldn’t see,
and always blamed and scolded me.
Such a shame.
I feel my mother's pain,
as she was tied to the patriarchy—
And me also,with a daughter wild and free.
Another new beginning—
both parents now gone.
No seeking permission
or validation
to sing my own song.
The last piece of the puzzle
finally fits.
The ancestral chain
almost in bits.
One woman in each family
here to break
the ties that bind
and heal the matriarchal line.
For we are the weavers,
the wisdom keepers—
it’s in our bones.
If you feel this,
you’re not alone we'll walk together on our way home
The stories of old
will gently unfold.
We’re here at this time
to sing and weave
this wonderful web together,
connected, barefoot,
to our other great mother—
Gaia she's forever giving.
As she also needs love and reciprocity.
From you and me
A time for rebirth, the cycle the spiral new earth🌀
