22/12/2024
*Disability talk*
I just want to touch on a few important things to me personally. I use a powered wheel chair and have done for a good few years now. My physical health has deteriorated as the years have gone by. As a kid I was always in pain to find out at 15 after years of doctors ignoring me mind, that I had deformed legs and required major surgery to correct them. For many years things were a little better but as time passed pain was getting worse. My joints were really flexible and I found that everything hurt. Even when I was lighter in weight. I was diagnosed with joint hyper mobility syndrome. Id been put on pain killers had scans over the years. And then I noticed my whole body hurt. My muscles and joints. I'd swell up in the summer and struggle tremendously in the cold winter. As time passed I was diagnosed with sciatica and after having my boys, was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. This has recently been talked about and is slowly being recognized as an auto immune disorder. When I'm stressed I am in more pain and stress comes in to my life like a bull in a china shop. I started having problems with my hips and worsening weakness to my knees. Resulting to now being diagnosed with arthritis. I also struggle with mental health but that's another post! I've struggled with my weight for a while and I know that I am causing so much strain on my joints. But I take ownership now. I spent years making excuses for my bad eating habits. Let's just say I eat my feelings! I am on a lot of medication which hold their own weight gain side affects, but I also can't do impact exercise to I'm In a little cycle. The whole point going forward is to be healthier both physically and mentally! Please though take a minute and stop being so judgemental to others. I've been stared at in my chair, shouted at on a bus for being"a fat bi**h that doesn't need a chair". And also forced to walk and really struggle and laughed at and put in a situation less than desirable. I don't think any one enjoys not being able to feel 'normal'.. I don't ask for special treatment if anything I always apologize if I get in the way. But a little more awareness goes a long way.
