Safe Space

04/04/2024

If I told you I use to hate myself most of my life it would probably take you by surprise upon meeting me now.
If you didn't know me, you'd have probably never known that I used to think of myself as a monster and that I thought I didn't deserve good things.
That I'd speak horribly to myself and date people that did the same.
And well, you get the picture.
A lot of people love to shun the person they use to be. They love to say things like, " Oh, I don't even recognize that person anymore," or that person is gone... I don't even want to know them."
Well, i do not do that. I instead love that person i was, too, and that's how I became this person now, by doing exactly that.
I had to love her and pull her close because that's what she needed. She was strong.. she held on no matter what happened, she was so so strong! Beautiful.. resilient, smart.. a lover.
How could I say anything terrible? How could I reject her? She held on long enough to get to the women I am now...
I do not reject any parts of myself that I know of.
And, I will tell you, the thing that made this clear, the thing that allowed this all to happen was for me to go back and understand her.. and I will share with you a little secret on how...

When I was in the middle of my deep shadow work a few years ago, I decided to grab a picture of myself from when I was little, maybe about 7. This was actually for another reason. and I was sure I had my focus on the right person, ( the reason I actually grabbed the picture was because there was someone else in the picture I was suppose to go back and confront) but because they are not here, I chose a picture attached to a ritual instead...
well.. I'll tell you, caught by my surprise.. my focus went directly on my child self instead of the other person in the picture.
My eyes were so deeply focused that I couldn't break them away..
It's like I was there..
I just starred at myself and cried.
I was so taken by the way I reacted..
I looked at myself differently for once! And that was so badly needed for years..
I was a little girl!
How could I have hated and rejected a little girl?
Now, maybe it hit different because I am also a mother now, but I will tell you, I wanted to jump in that picture and hold myself.
I wanted to tell myself how brave and special I was, and how I was so so sorry that they hurt us and that no one protected us.. but that I have us now, I will protect you (us) and love you and I will be the safe adult we never had!
I'm telling you, I cried and cried.. and I loved my little self more than any soul ever had before.
I pulled her close to me because I realized she was my core.
My love,
My resilience..
She had no idea the world was going to leave a mark on her soul at such a young age..
But look at us!
We got through it!
I just remember saying, " I love you, I love you, I love you" over and over again. It just poured out of me..
It's like I become one with a part of myself. And then it all made sense.
I made sense!
And it was one more step in the direction of self love..
I have come an even longer way from then and it is a truly freeing feeling..
It's so so bittersweet too!
That's the part of healing...
When you mend yourself, it hurts to see how much bad you allowed around yourself, what you allowed yourself to believe, and how the world made you believe it.
I'm telling you, when you do this hard work.. when you finally understand.. when you go back to hell to bring yourself back over and over again..
You won't let just anyone come in and destroy that! You won't surround yourself with people who don't treat you the way you deserve!
When you get your worth back, it changes everything!
When you realize the life you lived and your way of thinking was all created by those people that hurt you, when you finally realize you were never the monster....but them!?
You my friend will be unrecognizable.
The you now, I mean..

When you get yourself back, your life will never be the same again, because you won't be the same.

When you you go back to save yourself, when you claim all those parts of yourself you've split away from you for so long.. then you become an even stronger version of yourself..

Because you become whole.

And I hope you see through me that it is absolutely possible. No matter what you've been through.

We all deserve to live a life we had the right to have when we were created.

So please be strong!

Don't let the monsters win.

Fight for yourself instead and keep going on your journey..

Believe ✨️

©️Magdalena Moon 🌙
Dancing With Darkness

22/03/2024

There are moments in life that hurt big.

Like, really big.

Moments that shatter your heart into a million pieces.
Moments that make you question the point of it all.
Moments that make you doubt the future of humanity.
Moments that make it hard to find hope or light.
Moments that make you want to scream, cry, and shout.
Moments that make you feel completely out of control.
Moments that make you feel like you can’t find any air to fill your lungs.
Moments that make you feel like you are falling apart.
Moments that make you actually fall apart and send your world crumbling down around you.

When those moments hit you - and they will - because it seems no one is immune to moments like that, remember to reach out and hold on.

Reach out even if you can’t see where you are reaching.
Hold on even if it feels like holding on is the last thing you can do.

Reach out and believe that the people that love you most will find their way to you.
Hold on and remember that even the darkest moments are just moments in time.

Those moments will move on, leaving new moments in their place.
And in those new moments you will find love, support, and hope.

Keep reaching out.
Keep holding on.

Better moments are ahead.
They have to be.
💕

20/03/2024

Some food for thought today.

You’re wellbeing is important too!

I forgot I left out the flowers after coming home from the grocery store. I’d spent an embarrassing amount of time deciding whether even to get flowers.
When it comes to buying flowers for friends to cheer them up, I don’t hesitate. But flowers for myself? It felt too indulgent. Then I felt torn between buying flowers that cost less or buying the ones I wanted: Lilies.
I decided to go for it, placing the lilies in my cart. But they ended up on the countertop at home that night. Because I was rushing to get dinner on the table, by the time the family gobbled up the food and washed the dishes, it was too late.
I forgot to put the flowers in water! They were neglected, put to the side. The petals all wilted.
So many times, I feel like those wilted flowers, worn and exhausted because I’ve neglected my emotional and physical well-being. I get so busy taking care of everyone else, I forget who cares about my well-being.
Do you, too, ever feel like those lilies, in need of nurturing? Do you find it easy to put your heart to the side?
The Universe understands all the hard circumstances surrounding you. Yet your well-being is at the very centre of It’s heart. You are It’s beloved child. The universe and all it’s spirits cares for you.
How you feel is important to the Universe. It sees how you’re really doing. It wants you to take care of yourself because It loves you.
Having grown up as one of the oldest children in a difficult family, I’m an encourager by nature. I find it easier taking care of others, yet so often I forget my own well-being needs tending to … until I end up feeling exhausted and burned out with stress and worry.
Are you worried about so many needs around you that you’ve forgotten you, too, are worth taking care of?
Let’s get practical. Maybe you’re wondering, What is a simple way to remind myself of the Universe’s love for me Soul Care Tip: Buy yourself flowers. A University study found that simply looking at flowers improves emotional health; the presence of flowers triggered happy emotions in participants, increasing feelings of life satisfaction. Flowers are a Universal given, natural mood enhancer!
Today, when you feel pressures pressing in, here is truth you can hold on to and breathe in.
Do something that brings you joy.�Do something that brings you peace.�Do something that brings you beauty.
And hear the Universe whispering: �I love you and care for your every need. I love you
You are worth investing in, taking care of and nurturing.
The happy ending to my story is that I learned Lilly petals freshen up when placed in warm water. A few hours later, my flowers were refreshed again!
Your heart will also be refreshed, just like flowers blooming in the warmth of the sun, when you take time to rest and enjoy what brings you peace and joy.
It’s never too late to run into the arms of our loving Universe, who cares

19/03/2024

To free us from the expectations of others, to give us back to ourselves - there lies the greatest singular power of self-respect. ~ Joan Didion

02/03/2024

You’re used to being the strong one.
You know what it’s like to be alone and facing battles that feel overwhelming.
But that’s your life and you’ve long accepted it the way it is.
You’re not going to be a victim, complain or seek help to get through your days,
For you have long known that you alone will be the one fighting for your peace, survival and sometimes, sanity.
Truly, all you seek is happiness…
And it’s often the one thing that eludes you
But you’ll keep showing up and keep trying.
That’s who you are and how you are built…
Pieces together from the often broken pieces of the times that you’ve fallen apart and gotten back up and tried again.
Lovers have broken your heart, friends have let you down and people have disappointed you.
But you still keep hoping and loving anyways.
You won’t let the failures of the past darken your hopes for the future.
You believe in love, dreams and yourself.
You fight to become the woman you want to be.
You choose to never give up.
You’re many things, but you’ll never stay in one spot and doesn’t expect perfection in your life..
But you push yourself every day to be better than you was yesterday.
Maybe someone will come along one day that doesn’t try to tame your wild heart and won’t seek to cage your passionate spirit,
But you haven’t found it yet…
But it doesn’t mean you will give up hope.
But until that day,
You will do what you always have done.
Pick up your sword and fight the battles with unrelenting strength and fiery resolve.
You’re a unique and strong woman..
And that’s just what you do.
You know the sun always rises on a new day..
So you keep dreaming of the day when you will see the sunrise holding the hand of the one you love.
Then, you will finally be able to rest.

08/01/2024

Hope you’re having a good start to your year

31/12/2023

Here’s food for thought as we enter a new year.
A good life is an intentional life. We are not defined simply as a reaction to who others want us to be. Nor be ruled by meaningless distraction or maniacal busyness without purpose. We are here to live, not surrender. To embrace meaning. To love unconditionally. To give without expectation. To settle into solitude. To make meaning. To participate, not watch. To create, not copy. To be unapologetically ourselves. To rise up, and help others rise. I believe that this moment seeds every moment. Vulnerability is a virtue. Life is growth, stagnation is death. Presence beats presents. Compassion is a gateway to connection. Life is a co-creative process. With rare exception, everything is better when it’s shared. These things I know. These things, on my best days, I aspire to live. And, yes, I am now and always will be a work in progress. It’s called being human. A good life is not a place at which I arrive, it is a lens through which I see and create my world. It is lived this moment. And the next. And the next. Let’s do this despite what’s being thrown at us!!!!

24/12/2023

My hope for everyone is that this time of the year brings you happiness. Not because of presents, not because of delicious food and treats. My hope is you are known, you are loved, you matter and whatever happens tomorrow, you are not alone. Peace, love and light this Christmas

14/12/2023

13/12/2023

Just imagine that you finally reach the summit of your journey and at first you think that you are done. But then you look at the vast world before you and realise that this is the first climb of many. You see other mountain tops and you see dark ravines between. Life is like that for all of us, we climb up once only to realise that there are other summits to be climbed, dark ravines that you must walk through. It’s not simple or easy but no one ever promised us that life would be easy. So the choice is upon you. Do you stay at that mountain top and go no further, settling for that one victory? Or do you face what lies ahead and push yourself on? By settling you only get what you have got, but journeying on you discover and become more. You grow just as the mountains ahead of you grow, you discover that you are more than you ever imagined you could be. Take the journey, grow and become who you are truly meant to be.