23/10/2025
I am writing this at 2am whilst waiting for an ambulance for my mother in law.
It’s already been 3 hours and there is no estimated given time frame for their arrival- which I do understand.
Being a nurse for so long and because I have worked for the ambulance service I know how it works…. I know how short the resources are… I know there is not an endless supply of ambulances… I know we will have to wait until it’s our turn and no amount of fretting, wishing, praying will make it come any quicker.
And this waiting game got me thinking about the difference between resistance versus acceptance.
Resistance at a time like this would only cause more stress and heightened emotions … there is no advantage to resisting these circumstances because they are out of our control.
But acceptance is within our control… it may feel like giving up but it’s actually helpful in calming the emotions and reducing uncertainty.
I can accept that I am doing all I can as I wait with her and if her condition changes I will be the first on the phone to update them but calmness and a sense of safety and control are what she needs right now. To know I’m present with her rather than losing my head fighting the reality that we may still be here as the sun begins to rise.
I’m not saying it’s easy but it’s good to bring your thoughts back to what can I control … I can be here to help her feel safe..this then gives a sense of agency in a situation that may feel chaotic.
I accept right now that no matter how much longer we have to wait… we are doing it together… we are choosing calm over chaos and waiting our turn - because let’s face it .. there’s nothing else we can do x
Much love
Vix