27/11/2025
Being in nature helps calm my nervous system & come back to stillness 💚
This week I reconnected with an old friend. Itv was sadness that brought up together & sadness we shared in our catch up. Sometimes it's like that. Life isn't always happy but balance is experiencing the pain to appreciate the joy 💚
He didn't want to talk much about himself... what's there to say when you've reached the end of the road? But he feasted hungrily on my news. He welcomed the distraction. And not blowing my own horn but I'm a good story teller 😉
The thing is, I'd never had to recount the past half a decade or so all in one go. Friends, family have been on the sidelines of the story, holding our hands or cheering us on, depending. Bringing people up to speed with the events as they unfolded was one thing...Narrating the whole lot in 1 big dump was quite another 😔
If you've been following me for a while you'll know...if not, suffice to say we've had a lot of unsettling stuff happen. The usual - grief, pain, illness, breakdowns, changes, financial worries etc. Things could be worse and there are so many blessings to count.
However in telling one story after another & another, I experienced the EMOTIONAL weight of it all at once. Fear, sadness, anger, overwhelm. I felt unsafe. And my body reacted.
I felt jittery, my heart raced. I forgot to eat & drink. I was cold & my mind raced. I felt unwell in my body - nothing specific, just a feeling of dis-ease.
My nervous system was disregulated. Just like all those times before. Keeping me small & safe by keeping me stuck.
Why am I telling you this? Because life happens to us all & our bodies remember all of it. I had the resources & support network to deal with this & maybe there's some who don't. If so, I can help 💚
