22/09/2025                                                                            
                                    
                                                                            
                                            I want say a ❤️❤️❤️BIG THANK YOU!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
So many people have messaged me and offered loving , heartfelt support to me while I have navigated this last year , not just my crushed left Thumb ( who my husband now takes deep pleasure in nicknaming me Thumbelina) but with the many difficult times that have occurred.
Right now, life is intent on slowing me down.
And as much as I am here to surrender to her calls, I can’t say I find it easy.
I can’t say anyone I’ve ever treated, been friends with or even relatives finds slowing down easy- in particular the Women.
I was born an old soul , desperate to repair old wounds and make light of a world I have always struggled to feel safe in.
TBH , it’s not the world I struggle with , it’s the expectations, rules, “guidance”, demands, structures and actions of people in the world I have struggled with more so.
I was at my happiest being free running around fields, climbing trees, jumping across rivers and splashing in seas. I loved to be in my imagination with my imaginary world.
Life is beautiful and incredible, but there is not enough grace to be free anymore and the more I feel closed in , the weaker and more unwell I become.
I know that’s a tactic used to make people give in and become robotic.
With age I find this harder and harder to give in to and I’m not going to anymore either! 
But what I will surrender to is connection, communication and compassion.
I’m not myself when I’m living a life that isn’t mine.
I was born Autistic, I was given this miracle to stay wild, mysterious and explorative.
With so many things being a challenge in usual day to day life, I find solutions and medicine in being outdoors in a place filled with trees and wildlife.
You take me out if that and I’m lost , beaten and suppressed.
As much as I have fears over fulfilling my career ambitions, I also fear losing myself again to being chained to the rhythm ( as Katy perry puts it)
It’s not my bag! 
I want to be with the community, with the trees, the animals and seasons and go with natures calls not anything or anyone else’s and right now , my calls are always the carer/nurturer for myself as well as to others. 
I will use this time wisely as I winter and I will welcome the lesson .
But I too need love and reassurance, my brain isn’t used to this new plan and it’s assuming impending doom until it knows that every move made from the heart is always the right move no matter how long it takes to trust it.
But huge love to all as always , I am grateful for the support and encouragement I get from many .
As a therapist you don’t lead from knowing it all and being untouchable, you support and guide by experiencing things others will have to navigate themselves, so you can understand them deeper and be the safe space they need to explore their journey their way. 
Huge love always 
Em x 
As always I went and spent time in the trees xx