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Classic me, I missed international friendship day yesterday but had planned to post this, so I didn’t want to miss out.
31/07/2025

Classic me, I missed international friendship day yesterday but had planned to post this, so I didn’t want to miss out.

As if eating disorder recovery wasn’t hard enough, now we’re being asked to do it in a society that glorifies skinny and...
04/07/2025

As if eating disorder recovery wasn’t hard enough, now we’re being asked to do it in a society that glorifies skinny and weightloss is seen as the absolute top tier.

Honestly I’m sick of it.

I’ve shrunk myself down to the smallest possible, and I still hated myself. It’s all fake. None of it’s true. Skinny doesn’t mean better, it doesn’t mean successful, and it certainly doesn’t mean happier.

To anyone who is navigating recovery right now and struggling with messaging in society - I see you!

This is really tough, but you deserve better. You deserve to recover and have a life free of an eating disorder. Sometimes an eating disorder can feel safe, but it isn’t. It only *feels* safe because it’s what’s known - recovery brings uncertainty, spontaneity and change… but that’s okay, in fact as time goes on that becomes exciting!

So, this is just a little reminder that despite what you may be told, you are worth so much more than your weight and shape! You sparkle the brightest when you are living life to your fullest - not suppressed by an eating disorder 🩷

My partner just said to me “the Hannah we love isn’t the one who’s worried about her body, she’s not Hannah when she’s consumed by that”. And I believe that to be true for alllllllll of us 🌟

Shine bright my lovely people ###

Whoever says running your own business is boring is lying (they’re probably trying to stop you from having fun!)Networki...
02/07/2025

Whoever says running your own business is boring is lying (they’re probably trying to stop you from having fun!)

Networking has always been a joy of mine, and now I get to do it, fully show up as me, and connect with incredible people along the way!

This month we…

🩵 attended the March
🩷 visited for a lived experience talk
💛 attended inpatient ward open evening
🩵 participated in eating disorder committee in person meeting
🩷 joined the first all female networking event hosted by Holly and Jennifer
💛 recorded podcasts with Daniel from , , , and
🩵 participated in a study regarding body image and neurodiversity with

And lots of lovely client work along the way.

Now I’ve written that out I realise why I’m tired!

Full of Beans is full of life 🩵💛🩷

One of the things I’ve found hardest to develop in recovery is self trust. From listening to hunger, tiredness levels, v...
25/06/2025

One of the things I’ve found hardest to develop in recovery is self trust. From listening to hunger, tiredness levels, values, when to eat, who I should spend time with and what I should obsess over, my eating disorder has always made the rules.

When I started to recover, I had to start listening to myself. At first this felt so alien, and I would panic about making the wrong choice - what if I didn’t like the food? What if I got bored? What if I didn’t enjoy myself? What if? What if? What if?

Through recovery I’ve learnt that making mistakes is okay and we learn and grow when we do. I’ve also learnt that often I do make the right choice… and every time I have made a new decision, and it’s been okay (even if I might choose differently next time), I’ve developed more and more trust in myself.

Today I got off the train to London and saw Greggs shining across the street. Through Monzo I get a free “treat” each week and normally I get a coffee, but today I wanted a donut.

I bounced the idea around in my head for a bit - eating a donut on my own without others, without validation, without reassurance, felt a lot. But I fancied it, and I trusted in myself that it would be okay.

And boy oh boy, it was DELICIOUS! Whilst the donut was amazing, what’s more amazing is the way I was able to make this decision for myself, enjoy the food and do this alone. I’m still navigating making decisions like this without other people, but I know the more I do, the easier it’ll become.

So, cheers to the donut, but more importantly, cheers to believing in myself and knowing no matter what, things will be okay.

Yesterday was an incredibly bitter sweet day, whilst it was wonderful to catch up with so many people I’ve had on or who...
22/06/2025

Yesterday was an incredibly bitter sweet day, whilst it was wonderful to catch up with so many people I’ve had on or who listen to the podcast, hearing so many stories of the same, unsupportive care was heartbreaking.

I feel incredibly blessed to have met the people I have through Full of Beans, but equally wish we could have met on happier terms… not fighting for care we all deserve, but couldn’t/can’t get.

I have met the most inspiring people, many of whom I now call my friends, and that hurts even more to know the pain they have been/are going through just because there stories haven’t yet been taken seriously.

One thing is for sure though: this community is a fighter. We are not backing down or settling for less, because we know we deserve more. We will continue to come together, to raise awareness, to share our stories in the hope that some day soon someone who can make things happen sees that weight it just a number and eating disorders are mental health conditions that are defined by so much more internal pain and struggle than you could believe.

I know one thing I struggled with was recognising, until I had recovered, that I deserved support. To anyone struggling, you are so valid and worthy of support, despite what any healthcare professional may have said. And we are here fighting to ensure you realise that and get the support you need x

My takeaways from yesterday I’d like you to know:
💛 eating disorders do not have a “look” or weight
💛 anorexia is not the only eating disorder
💛 the impact of eating disorders on other mental health conditions needs to be acknowledged
💛 we CANNOT rely on family members to pick up the pieces / do the work healthcare professionals should be doing
💛 this community cares a WHOLE effing lot about helping others
💛 there are so many people working tirelessly and dedicated their lives to finding out more about EDs
💛 cor blimey, we are never alone 🥰🥰🥰

For 14 years, I was told I was “atypical”.For 14 years, I believed I wasn’t sick enough for support. For 14 years, I sta...
05/06/2025

For 14 years, I was told I was “atypical”.

For 14 years, I believed I wasn’t sick enough for support.

For 14 years, I stayed entrenched in eating disorder behaviours because my weight was “fine”.

To an outsider, I seemed okay. But inside, the dialogue was endless and crippling. My behaviours were a cry for help when I didn’t have the words, but I was met with invalidation, leaving me more alone.

Every day was consumed by thoughts about food, my body, exercise. I’d spend hours planning how to eat less, exercise more, pick apart my body, panic over what I looked like or what others thought. It touched everything, from work, relationships, hobbies, sleep, everything. I felt exhausted, empty, and like the only safe place was being alone, where no one could interfere or make me gain weight.

Even when I lost weight, after years of cycling in and out of an eating disorder, my behaviours were praised. That validation only strengthened the eating disorder, look how much attention you get when you make yourself smaller… keep going.

The idea that an ED is only valid at a certain BMI couldn’t be more wrong. Maybe if I’d been validated, I wouldn’t have spent 14 years trying to prove I was “sick enough” to deserve help. Every time I reached out, I was told I was fine. And so I tried harder to prove I wasn’t.

That’s why I’m so passionate about the campaign, to fight for the support people deserve, no matter their weight. EDs impact every part of your life, and often the struggle can’t be seen. But it’s crippling.

If this resonates: you are not alone. Your struggle is valid. You deserve support. Recovery is hard, but it’s possible, and you are worth it. x

In this weeks episode with .htemple we spoke about the impact of body appreciation on quality of life, particularly in w...
08/05/2025

In this weeks episode with .htemple we spoke about the impact of body appreciation on quality of life, particularly in women experiencing the menopause.

I’d love to hear your thoughts on the ep and if you’ve noticed these changes yourself 💛

today i recorded a podacst with and we spoke about how change can be a trigger for an eating disorder, and can also be ...
24/04/2025

today i recorded a podacst with and we spoke about how change can be a trigger for an eating disorder, and can also be the hardest thing to come to terms with during recovery.

i was terrified of change, but it turns out change was the best thing that could’ve ever happened.

thanks to recovery, every relationship i have has changed...

👫 my relationship with my partner - i feel like we are falling in love all over again
🧑‍🧑‍🧒 my relationship with my parents - they come to me too now, instead of me always crying to them
👯‍♀️ my relationship with my friends - through finding me, i’ve realised my worth and refocused my energy on people who deserve me
🍑 my relationship with my body - some days are good, some days are bad, but what’s important is that my body doesn’t dictate this
💻 my relationship with work - i do work i enjoy, am passionate about, and find projects that work with my brain
🏃‍♂️ my relationship with exercise - i train to feel good, push my limits, get strong and have fun!!!

the list is endless and i could go on forever. change is scary, recovery is scary, but it is so worth it.

and if it makes it feel less scary, it won’t happen overnight. instant change is hard, but recovery is slow. it takes time and bravery. but this also means you can adapt to the changes as you go - it’s not all at once.

Around a year ago today I was diagnosed with ADHD and autism. Well, I had a private assessment for ADHD and when they to...
02/04/2025

Around a year ago today I was diagnosed with ADHD and autism.

Well, I had a private assessment for ADHD and when they told me the results they said “you’re autistic too, but you didn’t pay for that so we can’t formally diagnose you”.

Unprofessional? Probably. Invalidating? Absolutely. Confusing? Exceptionally.

Since that day I’ve done a lot of work to understand my ADHD and how it impacts me, but I’ve not thought about autism.

When they said I was also autistic, I was shocked. I mean I was shocked I was ADHD, but that felt more believable.

Autistic? How could I be. I didn’t have a special interest, I was sociable, how could I be autistic?

Deep down, and I don’t want to say this, but I think I held a stigma against autistic people and didn’t think that could be me. But also, because I didn’t get an official diagnosis, I didn’t think it was me.

I know we go on about diagnoses and are they helpful, but in my case they have been because I am filled with so much self doubt, imposter syndrome and question every move I make, that I needed that to validate my experience and cut myself some slack.

I have to say, I’m not a fan of “autism acceptance day”, the terminology makes me cringe. But, on trans visibility day I saw a lot of posts about how it’s not a day for trans people to speak up - it’s a day for allies to, to show they have their friends backs and support them.

So I guess that’s what I’m trying to say - I don’t like the way this day is phrased but it fits. Today isn’t about me accepting that I have autism, it’s about society saying they accept me. That they accept my quirks, individualities and they are here to support me.

We are so keen to speak about neurodiversity and how we support it, until it’s an inconvenience. When my AuDHD helps me stay focused and work creatively, great. But when I need extra time, burn out, need to ask more questions or get overwhelmed, then it’s not okay.

It’s those moments we need support, to be seen, to be accepted, to be heard. I don’t want to hide anymore, with the fear of someone saying “but you don’t seem autistic” because I said that to myself out of shame, and I’m not ashamed anymore.

Happy Momma’s Day to my bestest friend, biggest cheerleader and inspiration for life. Thank you for always staying by mi...
30/03/2025

Happy Momma’s Day to my bestest friend, biggest cheerleader and inspiration for life.

Thank you for always staying by mind side, always picking up the phone when I ring, being there no matter what I need or what I’ve done, for understanding my emotional brain and the endless giggles we always have together.

I love you so much Momma Bear, thank you for everything 🩷💛🩵🧡

Ramadan is a beautiful and sacred time for Muslims around the world. However, if you’re living with an eating disorder, ...
28/03/2025

Ramadan is a beautiful and sacred time for Muslims around the world.

However, if you’re living with an eating disorder, it might provoke concerns for your recovery.

These may be challenging to communicate to your community, but it’s vital to prioritise your health and recovery.

Remember, your body and mind matter too. And your worth isn’t measured by whether or not you fast.

So take what you need from this post: save it for later, share with someone to explain your situation or who you feel may resonate.

And remember: choosing recovery is not a weakness, it’s sacred too. 🌙

GOD DAMN IS THIS WHAT HEALING LOOKS LIKE??? Since being diagnosed with AuDHD, a lot has changed. At first I was confused...
21/03/2025

GOD DAMN IS THIS WHAT HEALING LOOKS LIKE???

Since being diagnosed with AuDHD, a lot has changed. At first I was confused but relieved. Then I spoke to other ND friends and felt the mask start to slip. But it was terrifying, so I kept it close… just in case.

Over the past few months, I’ve thrown that mask royally in the bin. It’s been incredible to connect with others who’ve had similar experiences and finally realise it’s okay to be me!

The little girl who was full of energy, life and colour was pushed out. Always made to feel too loud, too intense, too crazy, too much. To be accepted, she thought she had to be quiet, calm, reserved.

Well, I’m pleased to announce that that is complete BO****KS!!!! And those very qualities that made Little Han so special are exactly what make adult Han who I am today.

I’m no longer afraid to show who I truly am, because I know there are people who love me for it. I’ve formed deep, meaningful connections by being unapologetically Han… and that is so, so special!!!!!

Most of all, by finally embracing who I am, I’ve built a relationship with myself I never thought possible. I’m proud of who I am, what I’ve done, and the passion, joy and dedication I bring to my life.

Some might ask, “Why do you need the ADHD label?” But for me, it was the validation I needed to understand that I’m not broken, I’m me. I’m weird, wonderful, excitable, passionate, emotional, intense, and I’m not scared of that anymore!!!!

Yes, there are days where it all feels too much. But now I can take a step back and hold myself with compassion instead of bullying myself into feeling inadequate.

So thank you, Little Han, for reminding me who we truly are, and that embracing our sparkly, glittery, fluffy, excitable, crazy, giggly, rainbow-loving self is EXACTLY what we’re here to do ❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🩷

PS. Yes I love capitals and !!!!!!! Because that’s how I show my excitement and bloody hell there is a LOT of that!!!!!

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