22/01/2026
I grew up hating my body - it felt like that's how I was supposed to live as a female.
First it came from watching my mum battling with self-image and going on diets, joining weight focused clubs that constantly had her measuring herself to see if she'd become small enough to be good enough.
That slowly fed into my view of myself - eating disorders, over-exercising, sucking in my waist, wrapping my 'too big' thighs in cling film (if you know, you know).
And I was complimented on my figure, fancied, called 'fit'. Maybe it was working! All that self-abuse was worth it...
But inside I felt hollow, lost, out of control and unlovable. Never enough.
My relationships lacked depth, my nervous system was constantly on edge, and I always felt I should do or be more.
I tried pilates, yoga, the gym, only ate what was supposed to be healthy.
The constant effort and pressure was exhausting.
At the same time I carried the weight of everyone else's needs.
I craved nurturing and a feeling of being 'complete'.
I just wanted to authentically feel not only healthy, but at ease with myself and my body, to be able to stay calm and balanced and not have chaotic thoughts and emotions.
That was 25 years ago, and I got all of what I needed and more when I started being coached in TCM and Buddhist healing...
Then I had a traumatic childbirth, went through multiple other traumatic events, and those feelings of being lost, exhausted and not enough returned.
But this time I had a headstart.
And when 10 family members (including my mum) died, menopause symptoms kicked in, and life fell apart in different ways, I'm able to stay steady and healthy.
I have the inner knowing, the fire, the energy to embody good health - body, mind and spirit.
🧡 Getting healthy shouldn't feel like a punishment, it's an act of love and compassion that is every person's right.
Want to learn how? Follow, save, comment and I'll be in touch 🙏🏻 I am so excited for what's coming!
'You can hit the gym, take the pilates class, eat the kale, take the supplements. But if you don't deal with and heal what's going on in your heart and mind, you will stay unhealthy.' The Wild Buddhist