17/07/2025
I finally broke and realised if im ever to live a "normal" life....i need to take medication. I had a mad break down a couple of weeks ago...where i completely crashed and i didn't move for nearly a week. So..Im finally taking my meds for both my adhd and my bipolar. And I must say......those bipolar meds fu***ng make me sleep 🤣 i normally go to bed at 11...then im up at 4:30 am ....now im struggling to wake up for 6am now after going to bed at 10pm. 😅 I feel far less erratic in my day to day though. Very lethargic in the morning i might add. But dare I say it...I actually feel normal on the evenings...its quite bloody nice tbh. Inner monologue has dissipated substantially. Much more focused. I can actually pin point on one thing now...instead of having 476 things going on in my brain at one time. There may be light at the end of the tunnel.
