07/10/2025
What’s the worst thing anyone has ever said to you?
In 2016 my life changed forever.
💫I lost my mother suddenly to cancer
💫I made the decision to leave my marriage after 10 years
💫The belief system I had built my life upon, that had influenced every single decision I had made, and had been my rock solid unshakable foundation cracked wide open, and started to crumble.
But instead of pain, grief, and fear, for the first time my life I felt the capacity for Love, I had unexplainable peace, and I felt joy for the first time in years. I felt so Alive and happy.
It was a beautiful season full of new experiences, travel, independence, and discovery. But it did not fit within the container I had been in up to that point. The optics of being a church family support worker getting divorced and traveling to Rome for a Sacred Feminine Retreat and doing yoga triggered a lot of pearl clutching, and complaints were made.
I was actively planning to transition out of my formal role long before it came to a head. I was hoping for a positive ending, closure on a season, and a peaceful exit. I was hoping to remain part of the family, to keep the relationships I cared about. I knew I would not be part of the day to day but I hoped to still hang out at the weekends and see in the new year.
When I tried to share my story, explain, etc.
💫 I was told I had been deceived.
💫 I was accused of bringing new age teaching into the church.
⚡️But the worst thing? It was when they said they had to “protect the church” from me.
I was dangerous
That cut so incredibly deep. I had given everything up to that point. My energy and time, my youth, my own children knew nothing else but the community there.
And overnight. It was gone. I was not “kicked out” I never lost my job, but when it ended, nothing was said.
I started university beginning my new life as a midwife, and attempted to keep going, but every time i was in the building I heard the words “dangerous” “need to protect from you”
And it became unbearable.
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