24/07/2025
Breech Delivery by planned C-Section - the baby's perspective.
We are not affected by our birth, are we? 🤔
Imagine being all cosy in your first 'home' contemplating that the space is getting too small and that it is nearly time to push through and come into a new world. A journey you know you need to make. And it will be okay because Mum will be there to help you. You will be working together, dancing through this experience together....
You become aware that there are conversations about a 'plan,' one that your adult humans seemed to be very agreeable to.
That's OK then. You are sure it will be ok, even though you have no idea what it is.
Then there is a time when you feel mum getting ready, that she makes a journey and she is in a new place. The sounds are different and unfamiliar, you are hearing new voices. But mum seems sort of okay, so you feel sort of OK. You are wondering what is going to happen.....
Then you feel her lying down. Something changes..... You can't feel her so well. Things become a bit spacey, you are feeling a little whoozy, sick. There is pressure coming into the bottom of your home. What the heck is that?
Suddenly the fluids that have surrounded you for nine months start to change and move in a way you have never experienced before. There is a release as your membranes are broken
The fluids that have surrounded you for nine months suddenly disappear.... Help! You feel like you are being washed away! The walls collapse around you.
Then you are touched, grabbed, by something you have never felt before. HELP!! It is pulling you, pulling at your feet, moving them. Oh goodness! They are no longer surrounded. Your feet feel different. Nothing against them.
Then another forceful touch, grabbing you from behind, squeezing your belly, your rib cage, lifting you, pulling you through a gap. Where am I going? What's happening to me? Where are you MUM?!
Your head is stuck in the darkness, still in your 'home' but you can still feel the other touch/sensation all over your body. What the hell is happening?!
Suddenly your head is free and you are squinting your eyes. The light! The light is so bright! Too bright. The noises, so unfamiliar. Scary.
Then there are the smells you have never smelt before. Where is Mum? Who are these 'others?' What are these 'others?' Aliens? Monsters? Gangsters?
A sharp pain. ARRRGH! An internal gulp. How do you...... AHH..... breathe.
Now you are lying on a hard surface, so hard it hurts your body. Everywhere hurts. You are feeling fuzzy, drifting in and out.
More things coming in and out, against your little body which is being moved all about. This is scary! Freaky! You do not want it. You hate it! STOP! PLEASE STOP!
Something comes around you, wraps you up tight. This feels a bit familiar.... A bit like 'home' but the contact against your skin is different, rougher, stiffer, there's a smell..... You feel whoozy as you are lifted and MOVED...
Suddenly you hear a voice you recognise.....
MUM! MUM! Is that you? Oh, Dad? Are you here too?
A small sense of relief, a cry, an intake of breath. Feeling mum's breathing and hearing her heart beat again. I know this. I KNOW THIS! Thank GOODNESS!
But what the hell just happened????
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