26/02/2026
Recently, I’ve noticed how frustrated and overwhelmed I’ve been feeling in my work.
The systems many of us are working within, particularly in education, post adoption support and SEND feel stretched, underfunded and often lacking real trauma-informed understanding. With the recent ASGSF cuts and White Paper discussions, I’ve found myself carrying a lot of that tension.
What’s been more confronting, though, is noticing what happens in me.
There are moments when I feel so overwhelmed that I question whether I want to keep doing this work at all. And that tells me something important - Not about the systems, but about my own nervous system.
On reflection, I can see that I still have patterns that are unconsciously driving me. Old habits of urgency, over-responsibility and internal pressure. And rather than pushing harder, I’ve decided to pause.
I’m revisiting a book that was profoundly helpful to me previously: Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself by Joe Dispenza. This time, I’m not just reading it. I’m committing to studying it, journalling, doing the meditations, and intentionally exploring who I want to be and how I want my life to feel.
I’m not sharing this to teach or preach.
I’m sharing it because part of my work right now is learning how to be seen in the process - not just once I’ve figured everything out.
I don’t know exactly what this will look like yet. But I’ll reflect openly on what feels helpful, what feels uncomfortable, and what I’m learning along the way.
Still here. Still believing. Just practising the vulnerability I invite in others - aka putting my big girl pants on!
