19/11/2025
DO YOU EVER FEEL LIKE YOU’RE CONSTANTLY FAILING??🙁🙁
I was 16years old waiting for the arrival of my GCSE results with nervous anticipation…I was so nervous I had to open them in the bathroom by myself.
As I scanned the piece of paper for my results, my heart sank - I hadn’t achieved the results I really wanted and in that moment felt like an absolute failure!
I took that feeling with me for the majority of my life. The feeling that I wasn’t intelligent enough to be successful in any job I found myself in. My reality kept confirming my fears because up until the age of 24yrs old I couldn’t keep a job. One HR manager told me as she was sacking me “You’re not cut out for this work, you should go and work in a shop” (nice lady) bearing in mind my job was predominantly filing, NOT searching for the next cure for cancer!
My self esteem and confidence bottomed out over those years to the point it had severe consequences to my mental health - feeling like a failure in everything you do doesn’t make for a fulfilling or satisfying life.
I look back at my 16yr old self with a completely different set of eyes. The years leading up to my GCSE results had been confusing, erratic and at times heartbreaking. I wasn’t concentrating on school work because I was desperately trying to fit in, so I would feel wanted…It wasn’t because I wasn’t intelligent enough, it was just because I was trying to keep my head above water in the environment I found myself in. Even the fact I wanted to prove my intelligence was just so I would feel ‘enough’
It took me years to unravel the invisible wall that held me back, and still is an ongoing process. I have to sooth the harsh critic - reminding it…..it’s job has come to an end, I’m taking the lead from now on!
Because that 16yr old girl had guts, intelligence and bravery, and NO GCSE results can ever replace that.
Instead of just celebrating the facts we are taught to remember. I ask you to see yourself for the whole of you, and not just for the pigeon hole society places on you.
We are all fighting some internal battle, when we bring that fight into the light, and see it for what it is… just the absolute need for connection, we all benefit from the realisation we are all ‘enough’ ❤️
Have a loving, connected day lovely people ❤️