30/12/2025
“Being yourself, is your biggest gift!”🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
I can remember the moment I found out I was pregnant with my son. I could not believe I was lucky enough to create another human being - I felt like I had won the lottery, and I was walking on air!!
My whole world changed in that moment, my only priority was to protect by baby with everything I had. Even to the point I wouldn’t carry the hoover upstairs in case I had a miscarriage. I even rang the pharmacy to ask If I had damaged my baby by having a throat lozenge 😂
The pharmacist must of thought I was crazy! BUT keeping my boy safe was everything to me.
Fast forward 20 years, I have spent those incredible years raising my son, and daughter who came along 4 years later. Who was another little miracle to me. ♥️
I knew motherhood wasn’t going to be all plain sailing; I was prepared for the challenges I would face, (as well as you can be) BUT, I could not have prepared myself for something that wasn’t even on my radar…
Because my son has…. limited language autism.
There is no handbook for typical children, let alone a neurodivergent child.
It’s like moving to a different country and having to learn a new language, traditions and what is expected of you…. Whilst simultaneously experiencing confusion, hurt, and grief for a life you thought you was going to have; plus, if you don’t learn fast you will suffer the consequences of your shortcomings 🙁
The path to raising my son who happens to have autism, is complicated, scary and isolating..
BUT, now, 20 years later I wouldn’t have changed a thing!
Obviously as a mother you never want your child to struggle, but what I know, with certainty is, it doesnt matter how much you wish things could be different, it’s never going to change a thing. It’s like trying to hold back the tide with a bucket a spad. It’s never going to happen!!!
It’s not always easy to accept reality, especially when you face big milestones. Realising your son will never go to university, learn to drive, or get married…..Can feel like you’re going through the grief you experienced when he was first diagnosed. But you learn to understand - it’s normal to have these feelings, and they will pass….
The most beautiful thing emerges from that pain… I see my son clearly, for the beautiful, kind soul he is. Who is happy, healthy and just loves life. Let’s be honest, that’s what every parent wants for their child.
He loves me unconditionally, like I love him unconditionally.
When we get down to the nitty gritty of life, that’s what we all want and crave. So, my son’s so called differences are his biggest asset……….. He is my greatest teacher, because learning to love without expectation….
is true freedom! 🎁
Have a wonderful 2026!! ♥️