Heal My Heart

17/04/2026

New Moon in Aries- Freedom from Self Sabotage, The Courage to Act, Transforming Wounds into Healing

On April 17th, we have the bold and daring New Moon at 27 degrees of Aries. New moons herald a time of renewal, beginnings and fresh starts. It is now time to step into a new phase and begin again. Aries, the 1st zodiac sign deals with courage, action, risks, bold moves and fast initiation.

Get ready!! This is the true new beginning of the year according to the traditional zodiac. We are in a particularly heavy Aries energy at the moment with the Sun, Moon, Mercury, Mars, Saturn and Neptune all in the sign of the ram.
Fresh and daring moves will be seen over the course of the next 2 weeks. New inventions and BIG CHANGES are in store! We will be asked to face something or even someone with a new zeal of passion and power!

The New Moon in Aries is here to light a fire under our a** in bright and BIG ways! No other sign is as self driven and purposeful as a spitfire Aries. We will be asked to step up and proclaim our sovereignty and sense of individual power over the next 2 weeks. This is a wonderful new moon to start something brand new that is a little scary or just out of our comfort zone. Many could begin a new business now or revamp an existing business with new initiatives and plans. The positive vibration of this fiery new moon will be the courage to finally act and the passion to sustain our efforts. The more challenging vibration of this bold new moon will be a tendency to be rash and to be too selfish and not think about the impact we have on others. The balance between the two will be to remain aware of others + to think twice before we go out on a new adventure. Passion and excitement will be HIGH now and that is great but longer term planning should also be thought of so we don't give in to overly reactive impulses.

The New Moon in Aries will be making a conjunction (0 degree aspect) to Chiron, an asteroid that signifies transforming our wounds into healing, who is also in the sign of Aries. The New Moon in conjunction with Chiron could bring up wounds connected to self sabotage, selfishness and self worth. We will be tested to truly believe in ourselves and to deal with any issues we have with imposter syndrome and lack of self awareness. For those who feel like they are in relationships( either personally or professionally) that limit their ability to feel free and empowered, this aspect will highlight what is not working and will offer solutions if we are willing to do the work and be honest. Honesty is another key here with all this Aries energy. Aries is brutally honest. In fact, this sign HATES lying and false pretenses. Chiron with the new moon will herald major healing around our sense of worth and courage if we are willing to face ourselves with authenticity and dedication.

The New Moon in Aries is ready to offer us change, self improvement and fiery ambition to tackle anything! As mentioned above, with so many planets in the sign of Aries there is a new level of self initiative power and vigor that wants to be established now. What new and bold creations could you begin over the course of the next couple of weeks? Even if you take just one step towards that dream project or plans, the cosmos will be in your corner. Fast and furious energy can be draining however so make sure to properly take breaks and rest under all this "get s**t done" energy. The New Moon in the courageous sign of the ram is here to offer courage and dedication to begin BIG projects and plans, new ways to step into our personal power and the ability to face our fears with conviction and self assurance.

To access my special extended sign horoscopes for this BOLD + COURAGEOUS New Moon in Aries, please join me over on my Patreon page: https://www.patreon.com/astromomma

In the extended sign horoscopes on Patreon, I provide a special guidance and direction for each zodiac sign on what to focus on for this New Moon. All channeled from spirit.
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16/04/2026

My workplace 🌳💕 today, finding peace at thriveatthefen 🙏🏼

13/04/2026

Due to unforeseen personal circumstances, there is no yoga class today. Sorry for any inconvenience.
Blessings & love
Vicky 🩵

11/04/2026

One of the sickest parts of narcissistic abuse is how normal it can look while it’s destroying you.

A lot of survivors were not ignoring abuse. They were trying to make sense of something designed to confuse them.

That is one of the biggest reasons it can take years to finally call it what it was.

Because narcissistic abuse often does not begin in a way the mind can immediately categorize as danger.

It often begins in a way that creates attachment.

Chemistry.
Intensity.
Hope.
Tenderness.
Closeness.
What feels like emotional depth.
What feels like being chosen.
What feels like finally being seen.

And that is part of what makes it so psychologically devastating.

Because abuse is much harder to name when the person hurting you is also the person comforting you.

When the same person who destabilizes you is also the person pulling you back in.

When the same relationship that is damaging your nervous system is also the one your nervous system keeps reaching for.

That is not weakness.

That is trauma architecture.

And it is one of the reasons so many survivors stay stuck in confusion for far longer than they ever imagined they would.

Because narcissistic abuse rarely works in a straight line.

It works in contradiction.

And contradiction is one of the most disorienting things a human mind can live inside.

Because now you are not trying to understand one clear reality.

You are trying to reconcile two completely different ones.

The version of them that felt loving.

And the version of them that kept hurting you.

The version that looked safe.

And the version that kept destabilizing you.

The version that made promises.

And the version that kept violating them.

That split keeps people trapped for years.

Because when someone is cruel all the time, the mind has less trouble identifying danger.

But when someone is:
• affectionate and harmful
• attentive and deceptive
• apologetic and abusive
• warm and punishing
• tender and terrifying

the brain does not land in certainty.

It lands in confusion.

And confusion is not a side effect of narcissistic abuse.

It is one of the mechanisms.

Because confusion keeps you engaged.

It keeps you thinking.

It keeps you analyzing.

It keeps you searching for the explanation that will finally make the contradictions make sense.

And that is where so many people lose years.

Not because they were blind.

Not because they were stupid.

Not because they “missed the signs.”

But because they were trapped inside a pattern that kept scrambling the meaning of what they were living through.

That matters.

Because a lot of survivors did not fail to see abuse.

They were repeatedly trained not to trust what they were seeing.

That is a very different thing.

And that training often happens in subtle ways.

Not always through one giant moment.

But through repeated distortions like:

“That’s not what happened.”
“You’re too sensitive.”
“You always twist things.”
“You’re overreacting.”
“You’re making this a bigger deal than it is.”
“You’re the problem here.”

Those moments do not just create conflict.

They create internal fracture.

Because after enough repetition, the focus stops being:

“Why are they doing this?”

And starts becoming:

“What is wrong with me that I keep reacting to this?”

That shift is devastating.

Because now the abuse is no longer just happening around you.

It is starting to reorganize how you interpret yourself.

And once someone gets you to distrust your own mind, your own body, your own emotional reactions, and your own read on reality…

abuse becomes much harder to name while you are still inside it.

Because now you are not just trying to understand them.

You are trying to understand whether you can trust yourself at all.

That is why so many survivors later say things like:

“I knew something was wrong, but I couldn’t fully trust what I knew.”

Exactly.

That is often what narcissistic abuse feels like from the inside.

Not total ignorance.

Not total blindness.

But a slow erosion of confidence in your own perception.

And when that erosion is happening at the same time as attachment, hope, chemistry, betrayal, apology, intimacy, and intermittent tenderness…

it can take a very long time for the full picture to lock into place.

Another reason it takes so long to call it abuse is because many survivors were not just attached to the person.

They were attached to the possibility.

The future they were sold.
The version of the relationship they kept hoping would finally become consistent.
The good moments that made the bad ones harder to process.
The idea that if they just communicated better, loved better, stayed calmer, explained it differently, or became easier to love… maybe the relationship would stop hurting.

That hope keeps people in the loop far longer than they realize.

Because as long as the mind still believes:
“Maybe this can still become what I thought it was,”
it will often delay the harsher truth.

Not because it is weak.

Because attachment and grief do not move quickly.

Especially when what is being grieved is not just a person…

but a promise that never fully materialized.

That is part of why the clarity can feel so brutal when it finally comes.

Because when survivors finally call it abuse, they are often not just naming the harm.

They are also grieving how long they had to live inside it before they could name it.

And that grief runs deep.

Not just:
“This hurt me.”

But:
“I spent years trying to fix something that was built to keep hurting me.”

That realization can break something open in a person.

Because once the system is named, self-blame starts to lose oxygen.

That is one of the most important shifts in healing.

Because healing often does not begin the day the relationship ends.

It begins the day confusion starts ending.

The day the pattern finally becomes clearer than the excuses.

The day your body, your mind, and your truth stop being forced to compete with the version of reality that kept you stuck.

And if it took years to call it abuse…

that does not mean it was not real.

It often means it was psychologically effective.

It means it got into the places that made it hard to see clearly while surviving it.

It means the damage was not just emotional.

It was interpretive.

It affected how reality was being processed while you were living inside it.

And that is exactly why so many survivors need so much compassion for the delay.

Because the delay was not stupidity.

It was not denial.

It was not weakness.

It was what often happens when someone is being harmed by a system that keeps interrupting their ability to accurately name the harm while it is happening.

And once you finally see that clearly…

so much starts making sense.

💜

Save this if it took years to call it what it was.

And share it with someone who may still be blaming themselves for how long it took to understand what they were living through.

19/03/2026

15/11/2025

Our new Muntjac Hut all ready to go for a cosy autumnal night with steaming Hot Tub to boot! Perfect Retreat 🥰 🧡👙 🦌 🦌 🦌

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