
31/12/2024
Grieving in your own time.
I still dont know.
Fully.
How to live my life with you gone.
I tried so hard to be the same me.
Every day.
But wanting life to be done.
I tried to be what was expected
But abnormal, misunderstood.
I tried to fulfil your life.
That didnt work out good.
Trying to make things happen.
The way I would want them for you.
But nothing that I tried.
Seemed to help me get through.
Because.
I missed you.
And I missed you.
And then.
I missed you even more.
I just so wanted to remember.
You hold me.
Be the one that you adore.
I miss you in a way
That not many people know.
I dont have the memories to remember.
Or the photographs to show.
I have so many missed moments.
That left no hopeful scope.
Darkness deep enough to take me.
But.
I choose to see hope.
In the nurture that you left me.
In the belief of your grace.
In the image I now have.
Of the beauty in your face.
You birthed me.
You loved me.
You moulded me
Im in awe of all you gave.
Before.
You were free.
In all the times that you were brave.
I love you.
I always love you.
But more than that, I miss you.
But I know, although we're apart..
I feel your love too.
And I carry it.
With me, always.
And it overflows my heart.
But.
I miss you every day.
And that missing.
That darkness of missing.
That!
That sadness of missing.
Thats ok.
N.Maillie