
16/04/2025
I am 7 months into this new journey of being a mom to two little human beings and what a ride it has been!!
I don’t recognize myself any more, from the physical parts to the logical and emotional parts. I can keep these beauties alive and meet their needs, but sometimes I can’t even remember names (due to brain fog and tiredness), I don’t have the energy or motivation to leave the house (due to fluctuations in hormones) and I am quite happy to live quietly in social isolation with my little family. It’s all things I am trying to make sense of, as well as considering what I want the pit stops of the journey to look and feel like.
Whilst I try and figure out what all this means, I am enjoying moments of being in the moment. It’s not rocket science for me but it always surprises me when it feels better,
- Good music - currently in my Gospel era
- Fresh air and going for walks, even if it’s just walking around the garden.
- Speaking with others who pour into my cup. It’s not often I have the energy, but when it happens it’s lovely.
- Loooooooong, hot showers.
- Cuddles on the sofa with the girlies, even if the means big sister on the iPad or doing me a “show” and little sister watching her in awe.
But the biggest thing I forgot that I needed and have not had for a while was being near the sea. Brighton and Hove have a special place in my heart and feels like home when I am there. We were there just for one night and I stopped, I felt, I listened, I laughed, I reset. I even brought a new book that I’m determined to start. Thank you
The 4th trimester is tough, weird, complex with emotions and beautiful all in one. No words of wisdom here, but just thought I would share in case it’s a gentle reminder for anyone. X