20/12/2025
This year, I stopped trying to bypass grief and let it become my practice. 🌑✨
This week I had surgery for endometriosis alongside sterilisation.
With it came a deep reckoning with the body I live in. A body that is disabled, chronically ill, and no longer willing to push itself into narratives that were never built for it.
Choosing not to pass on a genetic condition does not mean I am closing the door on motherhood.
It means I am making radical, loving choices.
It means I am redefining what motherhood is. Creativity, care, devotion, legacy, protection, stewardship, and presence.
Grieving one form does not erase the others. 🌱
In the wellness world, I have often been told to think positively, to trust that if I just healed enough, somatically, energetically, spiritually, my body would comply.
But the truth is this. You cannot heal your way out of a genetic condition.
And suggesting otherwise quietly places blame and shame onto bodies that are already carrying so much.
Somatics and energetics have changed my life profoundly.
Not by fixing me, but by teaching me how to be with myself.
How to meet grief instead of overriding it.
How to ritualise it, befriend it, and let it speak.
And how love grows not through force, but through acceptance. 🤍
The deeper I have gone into this work, the more I have stepped outside the expectations of an industry that often rewards productivity, bypassing, and high vibe resilience while excluding disabled bodies and lived reality.
What I am interested in now is harmony, pacing, accessibility, and truth.
This past week post surgery, I have been sitting with everything my body has been holding. Riding the waves, listening, integrating.
Letting grief have a voice.
Letting excitement arrive too.
Welcoming a new chapter that does not require me to abandon myself to belong. 🌊
This is not less than motherhood.
This is not failure.
This is devotion to life as it actually is.
And this is the work I bring into the space with my clients. Spacious, honest, inclusive, and rooted in lived experience.
Grief can be a teacher.
Acceptance can be fertile ground.
And there is so much life waiting on the other side of meeting ourselves fully✨