09/03/2024
Wrote this just now, had a pretty bad episode over the last few days, coming out of it but f**k that was intense, I love you all.
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Here we go again, Darkness closes in
No relief for me just have to take it on the chin
Nothing I can do, but wait until it leaves
My brain seems to work independently from me.
Sometimes I can manage, but mostly I cannot.
Although I try to fight it with everything I got
Not looking for pity, or even sympathy
It's my responsibility to heal the injury
Sleep isn't easy, though I need to rest
It's hard when your heart is beating out your chest
Try to slowly breathing, doesn't change a thing
The hurt Inside never dies it just hides within
Tired of being told how I should feel about this s**t
"Just let it go Nikki" why don't you f**k off you prick
I know my brain is damaged, from trauma I received
As a child I tried to speak up but I was not believed
They say what doesn't kill us, only makes us strong
But how can you be strong when you feel you don't belong
It is a daily struggle, but I refuse to quit
I'll fight until the day I die I just cannot submit.
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