03/03/2026
I had many big realisations while in meditation, but for me some of the most powerful changes are the small things I notice in every day life.
Ability to use anger
I came home to a half renovated house, full of animals, two of which were sick. It was a lot, and honestly I felt angry with the homeowner. I could’ve let it spiral, or supress it down, but instead I just let myself feel it, process it, find a kind way of expressing a boundary and coming to a better conclusion.
S*x
over the years I’ve spent time exploring ta**ra, temples, dance.. but honestly spending a week noticing sensations in my body, slowing down and being fully present with myself is all I need.
Driving anxiety
I passed my test when I was 18, and didn’t drive for 10 years after that so these days sometimes I can be anxious around it. After the retreat, it was like the part of my mind that worried has gone quiet and if someone honked, I just waves without a care in the world.
Relishing in the silence
I drove 2.5 hours home when I left, usually I listen to music or podcasts but this time I just drove in silence, while others around me were getting angry about traffic jams, I was just enjoying the stillness, content just being in the moment.
Not needing comfort food
A few days after I was at the farmers market, I saw a basque cheesecake (one of my FAVs) usually I would just buy it on a whim, let my craving win, this time I just checked with my body, did I actually want it? No. So I didn’t get it, not because I was depriving myself, but because it felt better to choose what my body wanted.
Before I often had this feeling of needing to do more, of worry, or trying to hold everything together, after I had this deep feeling of “everything is ok”, I can let go and just live my life.
This is what embodied nervous system presence gives me, it isn’t just health, the benefits spread into all parts of my life.
If you want a taste of this, this month I will be running a 7 day- nervous system led- Spring Hormone Cleanse.
Think nourishment, cleansing, somatic practices, and a community of women.
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