15/12/2025
A personal share about my silence and regression from social media and my work as a healer lately. I’m a strong believer in having true integrity in my work as a healer and space holder for others and my personal life as a mother and grandmother. I’m sharing this because I am someone that practices what I preach and I truly believe that none of us, no matter how long we have been doing this work, are ever at a stage where we should not be doing our own healing in the background. Not just for ourselves and our families but to be able to hold our clients with strength, honesty, integrity, and safety.
It’s been a rollercoaster and loop of descent, shedding, rising, and spiralling. At the start of 2025, I was on a stratospheric high and in an integration process from spending two weeks deep in the jungle on a women-only retreat sitting with Grandmother Aya along with other wonderful plant medicines and like-minded, beautifully BRAVE women.
I was seeing lots of clients despite battling with the constant noise and pressure of having to be a marketing and social media expert. Something my voice and confidence were really struggling to do. I have over 29 years of frontline healthcare experience, not “selling myself”. In the spring and summer, I embarked on a three and a half-month Cacao as medicine apprenticeship that flipped my being and my world. It gifted me profound life-changing experiences and blessings from Mama Cacao, my spirit guides, power animals, and my ancestors.
I was on a high, seeing clients and posting regularly on socials ✨😮💨 then boom 💥 my confidence was dissipating. I was feeling choked, blocked, stunted, inadequate, undeserving, incapable, and small. Totally disempowered. There was some big 💩 and trickery going on. For the last five weeks, I’ve been on a mentorship and healing with the magical plant Bobinsana and being held in this by the ever-supportive and giving .hill
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