30/01/2026
Day 11 š©·
Counselling cracked me open in ways I never expected. It helped me understand myself at a depth I had never reached before. Slowly, patterns began to make sense. My struggles with self-worth. My inability to say no. Always putting others first. The lack of respect and compassion I had for myself. The constant need for approval. The list felt endless, but for the first time it was illuminating rather than shaming.
During this period, I developed frozen shoulder on my left side, which is still ongoing unfortunately. I long for the day I can shave my own armpit, put my hair into a ponytail, or high-five someone without thinking twice š. It sounds small, but itās become a daily reminder of how deeply the body holds what the mind tries to survive.
That experience only confirmed what I was beginning to understand. My physical conditions were not random. They were rooted in suppressed emotions, unprocessed trauma, and years of quietly carrying more than I ever allowed myself to acknowledge.
I began journaling every day. Slowly, I created a routine that grounded me and gave my days structure and intention. It became a sacred practice, one I returned to daily. Yoga and gentle stretching. Oracle cards. Affirmations. Gratitude. Self-healing. Quiet moments of guidance and reflection. Through these rituals, I began to reconnect with myself.
In that space, something shifted. I started to love myself, my body, and my life in a way I never had before. Gratitude stopped being something I practised and became something I felt. I found myself thankful for everything, even the small, ordinary moments that once went unnoticed.
I also completed my Angelic Reiki Level II with the same beautiful group of women. This time, the experience felt even more expansive. I encountered angels, star beings and ascended masters, travelled beyond this world to other planets and galaxies, and both gave and received healing. The entire experience felt deeply sacred, breathtaking, and truly magical.
Donāt get me wrong, the pain didnāt disappear. There were still days when my body hurt and exhaustion completely overtook me. But something fundamental had changed. I appreciated my life in a way I never had before, and that shift was pricelessā¦ā¦