21/10/2025
"I’ve been scared to be seen. But hiding isn’t safe anymore."
I’ve felt the pull to hide myself from social media for a while now. Not because I had nothing to share, but because I was scared. Scared to be seen. Scared of who might be watching, judging, criticising, laughing…
And sometimes I wonder is it even real, or is it all in my head?
I've been sitting with that fear. Digging deep. Trying to understand why I feel the need to shrink, to stay small, to stay safe.
Is it because I’m highly sensitive?
Is it because I care too much?
Is it ancestral - something passed down through generations that I’ve unconsciously inherited?
The more I explore, the more I realise how complex this is.
Maybe I’ve judged others out of fear of being judged myself.
Maybe that voice in my head isn’t even mine.
Maybe I’ve internalised criticism and made it part of my identity.
This is deep-rooted work.
Unpacking the stories. Unlearning the self-doubt.
And honestly at times, it’s been paralysing.
The negative self-talk has held me back more than any outside judgment ever could.
But something’s shifting. Slowly. Gently.
So here I am, just starting to eek out of the shadows.
Starting to feel ready to be seen again and not because I’ve “figured it all out,” but because I’m learning to feel safe in my own skin.
Learning to be vulnerable without fear taking the wheel.
Learning that what I have to offer is worthy, even if not everyone understands it.
I’m not here to please everyone. I’m here to be real and if you’ve ever felt this way too, then know you’re not alone.
Here’s to showing up anyway.
To being seen.
To healing in public.
To choosing courage over comfort.
One step at a time.
