04/07/2025
Perimenopause is annoying. Here I am all healthy and happy in the sun, but this week’s new ’no you’re not dying, it’s just perimenopause’ symptoms to add to the ever growing list of panicked google searches include prickly heat and palpitations. Apparently 1 in 4 women experience palpitations in menopause but I had no idea. Why don’t they take women aside when they’re in their late 30s - like they did at primary school to tell you about your periods - and give you a heads up about what to expect? Yes I’ve done my reading, been to the doctors, taken my supplements, spoken to the wild women who have walked the path before me, and generally do my best to manage things. Yes I know it’s “just” fluctuating hormones, but that makes it sound like it’s something light and manageable that us lady folk need to stop moaning about, rather than something that makes every day life an unpredictable nightmare. It is currently proving to be physically and emotionally debilitating on a daily basis and it all seems pretty unfair after I’ve worked so hard to get my life to this point and want to reap the rewards. Instead I am frequently found lying in a dark room unable to interact with anyone or riding an emotional rollercoaster that I would quite like to get off. It’s not all day every day, but it is most days for some of the day (and night), and that in itself is exhausting especially when you know it’s going to last a good 10 years. It also rocks your sense of self belief and self worth because if you can’t even trust and respect your own feelings and reactions in the moment how can you ask others to do the same? No wonder depression, su***de and divorce rates all go up in the menopausal woman age bracket. I do not have the answers but I’m sharing the questions in case they echo with anyone else today. Like every other woman before me I’ll get through it, and yes I am privileged to be in a position where this is the worst of my problems, but as always ‘getting through it’ seems to me to be a sad way for women to live their lives.