My mental health recovery

01/06/2025

I have been pottering in the garden and keep picking the strawberrys and giving them to the younger kids and trying to figure out why my veg is not growing

01/06/2025

its been an interesting week at work with half the drivers off sick (god knows what they ate or where), but a phrase popped into my mind this week about working smarter not harder. in particular a driver always comments about how slow I am and that I am always the last one to finish and I just reply im slow and steady, well on thursday he was complaining about having extra drops and he was going to be out late with 90 odd drops and said its going to be a busy day I shrugged my shoulders and said have to take the bad days with the good (then I looked at my drops and there was no change) so smiled to myself. Because i am slower they didnt put extra on me. SMARTER NOT HARDER

11/05/2025

well its been a while and I have not been in a good place.......not a bad place either somewhere in limbo I guess. I have been under a little stress and over tired and have been trying to figure out my head a bit. but I did see the warning signs so I caught any possible slippery slopes and I have opened up and checked in with people regular. Also had to deal with the unexpected death of one of our dogs and if you have a pet you know they are like family. today has been the most productive day I have had in months literally unstoppable today and baked a cake too.

13/04/2025

This is what I have been up to after work and weekends to help clear my head and have some quiet time, sometimes Amelia helps me out with planting and she chose the Tulips😊

13/04/2025

ok catch up: my son had an operation the other week so his mum stayed up the hospital with him and on the 2nd week I was back at work, I realised how much she does around the house for everybody including myself so I have created a chore list for everyone to do to make her day a bit easier, we have 1-2 jobs a day and now the bigger kids are doing their own laundry they are over 18 and have no reason not to other than cant be botherd. the jobs are simple and take 15 mins max. The hardest part of this plan is keeping the lady of the house to stick to the list and stop doing it for them

13/04/2025

Its been a very tiring week at work with the new routes which slows me down a lot and to be honest I have been mentally and physically drained, I made a bad choice to get to work earlier so I could finish earlier (makes sense right) but no as I ended up getting little sleep my average was 4hrs and on Friday I was asked to help out another driver as he had broken down, we was the only 2 still out so of course I helped. I ended up getting the other driver to take over as I was too Tired.....lesson learnt I shall continue at my own pace.
needless to say I had a very long sleep friday and saturday night got some pottering in my garden done for some relaxation and chilled out with some easy listening tunes.

06/04/2025

28/03/2025

I decided to pop in to my old store for a catch up, so glad I did😊😊

22/03/2025

well I have not had a good week I have been a bit stressed out for no reason and yesterday I decided to walk home from work (6.1 miles apparently) now I could of got the train or a bus but i wasnt really in the mood for people to be honest and I thought I am off work for a week, its a friday so I get a lay in tomorrow and my destination and what I do when I get in is the same the only difference was the journey, so walked I did and after mapping my route, off I set across the fields and eventually came to a chalk path with loose rocks that went up and on forever, 1/2 way up I was regretting my choice and honestly it was a steep climb so thought if i get to the top I will need to sit down ( there was nowhere to sit other than a lot of fly tipping) so as it was flatter ground I kept going putting one foot in front of the other along a very quiet road and the sun was setting a brief thought of me getting attacked by a rabid fox did cross my mind but no I didnt see any foxes just a birds wing.
when I finally arrived home, I made my coffee kicked my boots off sat on the sofa and thought about that steep climb, I had wanted to quit but kept going and took my time, I had a bad week but I was OK and used that walk home to clear my head and I felt better. google maps said 2hrs 54min I did it in 2hrs 20min its a small win but the journey was worth it, blossom on the hedges and plants the view was great too, the mass of fly tipping at the top of my mountain and the distant noise of bluebell hill and the M2, It was a nice peaceful walk

15/03/2025

wow its been a month since I posted last (sorry been busy) work is going well I have finally started on the garden for this year getting the weeding and beds done (The tulips should bloom this week) I bought 2 bags of compost ready for the veggie seeds to go in (just need to remember where i put the seeds) cleaned the pond last weekend and trimmed the plants and the fish are happier, i will try and post some pictures soon, mentally I have been a bit off the last 2 weeks, a bit emotional, feeling overwhelmed i guess proberbly because I have a lot planned and still trying to sort out finances and catch up but im hanging in.
And if you need this...... you are wanted, valued, and loved😘

17/02/2025

With work going well and spring starting to make an appearance I have much to get started in the garden with planting and a good tidy up after winter

06/02/2025

i have been talking to a therapist for over a month to originally help me get back into work (but I got my job before the session started) and see how a working environment would affect me.
because I have a really good laid back boss who knows my struggles and has given really good feedback I felt that it was no longer needed and should give my slot to someone who needed it and I am grateful for the help I got and the relief it was to know I had a neutral person I could talk to.

Thankyou