29/08/2021
I don't want to live this life anymore. There, I said it. Phew I've wanted to voice those words so much but I've refrained for fear of upsetting family & friends. Migraines are like a life sentence in my opinion, that dull pain always seems to be lurking just ready to pounce. I am so sick and tired of having to live with this, a string of countless unsuccessful medications and treatments behind me - wasted years of my life that I'll never get back.
At 32 I'm terrified of the uncertainty of my future, will I find something that significantly helps or is this destined to be my battle for years to come?
Sometimes I feel like I'm being selfish and I should count myself lucky that I don't have a terminal illness but then living with these dibilatating Migraines leaves me with such a poor quality of life, full of pain, sickness, brain fog, the list goes on.
I went to the park yesterday and had to sit on a bench watching my toddler play with his Grampa because I was too weak & dizzy to join in....that is so crap, the feeling crushed me and yes I cried, silently to myself.
Every single day I wake up praying that today won't be another bad one, we can but live in hope.
