14/10/2023
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me too, but it doesnโt mean there wasnโt experiences amongst the good that caused us to suppress how we felt and is now trapped in our bodies, causing chaos in our outer world.
so many people sit in my chair and donโt know that โtraumaโ isnโt only things like abuse, neglect, etc. but that it is also the lack of love, affection and emotional connection, along with many other experiences.
i had what you would a โgood upbringingโ and yet i still felt rejected, abandoned, unworthy and unloved at numerous times throughout my life. infact i still feel these things now when certain things happen in my life.
iโve had many periods of feeling low and not understanding why, now i see that these beliefs that i carry are why. whenever something happened it laid another layer of rejection, abandonment, unworthiness or feeling unloved onto the wounds that were already there, inside of me. layer upon layer of sh*t that has made me act a certain way or make certain decisions throughout my life.
i then had thoughts that would tell me i couldnโt feel the way that i did, because so many people around me had it worse than me. they had experienced horrific things that justified why they could feel that way. i hadnโt. so again, i suppressed even more.
we have all experienced trauma, every single one of us on this planet. some refer to it as โbig t traumaโ and โsmall t traumaโ. i say there is no scale, trauma is trauma. something happens in our life that makes us feel pain, hurt, discomfort and buries itself deep within us. we then carry that (usually for a long time) and it causes us to feel all these emotions that we do not know how to deal with. it creates beliefs about ourselves, others and the world that are usually nothing but lies. it affects us. and i say it is our duty to ourselves to face it and heal it. carrying it around only causes us more pain.
so, if like me, you feel that because your life hasnโt been โthat badโ you should just continue to power through and ignore the pain inside of you, i ask that you reach out. myself and many others in this world can help you.
you donโt have to feel the way that you do ๐งก
