15/08/2024
Today I decided to face my fear of spiders. I had the perfect chance after seeing one of the biggest spiders I've ever seen in my life! I looked at it and realised instead of getting away from it, I could use it as an opportunity to change.
To be able to do this, you need a motive, something that drives you (an intention). I knew, that if I left the spider π·οΈπΈοΈ, it would definitely be killed by the next person and it's life would be over.
I spent time thinking about that, and decided that it would be worse for it to die today, than for me to move it.
So I set to work on my mindset. Ok, so the spider is more scared than I am (cliche, but when I really thought about it, definitely true).
I studied the spider for a while, questioning what is it that I find scary about it and why do I find it so ugly? Where do my fears come from?
I know it all seems a bit extreme, but if I want to change, I have to look at where my beliefs come from.
I procrastinated for a while, questionning..."why do I need to do this? Then kept reminding myself of the motive. I don't want it to be killed.
So I bravely faced fears and transferred it onto a feather duster before flicking it outside, I've never done that before, it felt great to do something different! To know I can choose how to respond to a situation ππΌππΌ
I'll definitely be scared next time I see one too, but over time, I hope I can feel more comfortable with them, change takes time!
This is the actual spider on photo! She posed for a photo π·οΈβ€οΈ
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