26/09/2025
I spent yesterday gathering Lavender and lemon balm from the garden to make into smudge sticks. Being outdoors, especially in this gorgeous sun is so healing and I feel I need that right now. So many of us put on a brave face and disguise what's going on underneath, the hurt that others cause us, a toxic environment at home or work, bad energy, ill health, the loss of a loved one, it causes us trauma and it takes its toll without us realising sometimes.
I read that the only thing we can do is be positive and move forwards - yesterday has passed. Interestingly, I also read that we shouldn't talk about it as this brings that negativity into today - we need to leave it behind. While I understand this I think that talking really helps to lessen the burden - a problem shared is a problem halved. I have been honoured to have people talking with me about issues they haven't been able to talk with anyone else about - friends or family - for fear of judgement or simply not understanding why tough old you is struggling.
I remember a long time ago when I was really upset by a situation in my life, my boss at the time (who was a lovely person) said "Alison, you're a soldier, a fighter, you can handle this". I know what they meant - i'm a tough cookie and would get up and get over it. But I remember that that soldier didn't want to fight anymore, was tired of fighting, for once wanted someone else to step up and take care of the wounded soldier because people think that strong people can just carry on - sometimes they can not.
Don't feel like you have to keep being the soldier and maybe what that means is that we do need to talk xx
