09/11/2025
I took this picture tonight after my 6 year old daughter asked for a ‘date night with mummy’ . We love to do this and she always wants to get dressed up.
I’m so glad that she did. I felt lovely in this outfit.
But I’d be lieing if I said that I’m 100% confident and connected to body atm. In fact since having my children nearly 7 years ago- I feel so different.
And it’s really confusing because on one hand- I’m so incredibly proud, inspired and empowered by what my body has achieved and been through in pregnancy, childbirth and feeding my children too.
I also feel so proud of my fitness journey and achievements that I have both before and after having my children.
And still, I can look in the mirror and feel lost. Not recognising the lady looking back at me. Not quite feeling connected to the body that is now mine- aches and pain, curves, lumps and bumps, scares and all.
This isn’t a post to ask for comments of praise or beauty- but one to acknowledge that it’s never black and white- all or nothing. That we can feel both sets of emotions.
That maybe- the acceptance of how our bodies have changed and celerbration of all that is has enabled you to experience is where we meet in the middle to find more connection again.
More peace and compassion for ourselves.
So here I am. Taking small steps each day to be able to smile back at my reflection. To truly feel connected with my body again.
To not feel so lost or embarrassed by its size, wobble, inflexibility and lack of strength.
To truly recognise the women staring back at me and smile whilst I whisper- I’m home ❤️🙏
If you can relate keep loving yourself until you feel connected again ❤️
Be it some time to rest, abit of skin care, some exercise, yoga, eating well- keep loving yourself. Keep showing up for yourself.
I am figuring this out with you.
Sending love.
Kel 🙏
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