08/01/2026
For years, I thought healing meant becoming more āspiritual.ā more crystals, more rituals, more sage, more inner work.a s**t tonne of cacao. I had it all. Done it all.
The certificates. The experience. The wisdom.
Truth. I got caught up in the noise, the language and quite possibly a decade ago the aesthetics.
Let me tell you honestly, none of that can ever hold or heal you when your nervous system doesn't feel safe or maybe has never known what safety is.
I have been on this Earth for 51 years, I know the difference between a breakdown and a breakthrough. I have experienced both.
2025 was the year that showed me what I thought I'd healed, believe me when I say I had only scratched the surface previously.
I didn't collapse into victim mindset. I didn't come on here and share the details.
I didn't make it my personality. My identity.
But I won't pretend it was easy.
F**k it was like being stuck in a tornado at times. šŖļø
Something happened that I have never experienced before. It certainly wasn't about "a dark night of the soul" in the aesthetic Instagram way some speak about it, nope,
It was for me
Real
Raw
Surreal
I was cracked open, in a cellular way. I have had many spiritual experiences but this. Something else I'm not going to explain on detail but some will know, God has showns a light on the parts I had to see. Within and surrounding me.
I thought I knew it all but there were truths I avoided, but I now know my physical body wasn't safe to to go there then. Decades I carried parts of me I felt scared to face. Until I felt held. Safe. When I did. Things changed. I have changed. I feel like my whole physical body has came alive. May sound daft right I get it. I truly get it.
I didn't get to this place because I
Manifested it š„±
Changed my vibration
Bought a crystal
Pulled a card.
But because my nervous system finally felt safe enough to allow the truth to rise. To see.
This I now fully believe is what embodiment is.
This year IS about being bold. Of course we have fire horse energy posted everywhere right now... But remember this one thing, What's not anchored in safety, will burnout or burn down!
I can hold me now.š„
Xx