15/09/2025
When I grew up I battled with my identity a lot. Due to abuse and also being mixed race. I never quite felt a sense of belonging anywhere because I was always different wherever. My self-worth and belief systems were all jumbled up and I'd ultimately always internalise the world around me that I was the problem. There was something 'wrong' with me. I was painfully shy, could even say withdrawn and would try blend in as much as possible. When bad things happened to me or I'd witness horrible things I used to think I was being too sensitive or weak (specifically told this) because these things were normalised around me.
This is a lot to hold for a child as you can imagine. I never really understood diversity or the importance of it until I got older and started making my own way. Until I started looking at world views, culture, belief systems, connected with different ages of people and with a massive range of experiences. For me I found this comforting because I found a sense of belonging within the difference. I know this can be scary for some as it can feel too big or bring out defences.
I then started exploring inward and connecting the dots of my own story. Processing emotions healthy. Healing my past and narratives. Asking myself who I am without labels or conditioning. What I value. What I stand for. What impact I want to make. This has been the hardest but most liberating thing I've ever faced in my whole life. I've also been working a lot on aligning myself to my life.
These things are important as it's where we function from and view ourselves and the world as we know it. Until this past week I didn't realise there was something vital that I missed. It was unity in those differences. That it's not just shining a light up to those differences and trying to get insight. It's celebrating them together and finding mutual understanding in the divides. I'm always preaching awareness and communciation, obviously, Therapist derr! That doesn't mean you have to force relationships either that's a different topic.
Above all though connecting as one - human kind and showing each other compassion and love regardless.
Thank you for reading, Canse.K💜
