27/03/2026
💚💛🏃🏼♀️This was a get out and let it out kind of run…I’ve found this last week particularly difficult. Most likely it’s the cumulative effect of sleep deprivation but I’ve just felt near the end of my resource, feeling like I’m close to breaking point. I’m snappy & grumpy and don’t very much like this version of myself. I’ve felt like I want to crawl back into bed at any opportunity but then fearing even if I could my mind would be whirring with all the other things I want to get done. So instead I opt for fresh air & exercise. It helps. I’m grateful I do get moments when I can just up & run, because I have a village that make it happen.
I know that this is a phase of my life and sleep will return. I know my expectations of myself are too high. I know I can’t be and do everything. Yet my mind also tells me that if I leave the to do list now, it’ll be bigger and more consuming later. In reality, I know those things I feel I “need” to do can wait and I know that would be the advice I give to others but applying it to myself feels really difficult right now. It’s the little things, the day to day tasks; the laundry, the washing up, the tidying up, the meal planning, the meal prepping, the food shop, it’s one child demanding a snack, the other fighting a nap… it can feel relentless, it can feel overwhelming.
You really never switch off from being a mother. There is a constant physical, cognitive or emotional demand. It is exhausting. Putting this here as a reminder to myself that this is temporary, that I will look back and be proud of what I have achieved and the resilience it takes to be a mother. If this resonates with you, I hope you feel seen and know you are not alone xx
