18/01/2026
I am a natural at manifesting. I get everything I want, when the time is right of course. I’ve manifested houses, friends, jobs, love but there is something that I always struggle to manifest and that is a constant flow of money.
I’m sharing this with you as I’ve been doing so much work on why this could be.
I’ve been doing this work using the tools I have and with my own EFT practitioner- yes I get regular EFT too.
I’ve been focusing alot on shadow work. Shadow work are the parts of ourselves that we hide. The parts of ourselves that we think make us unloveable usually from childhood.
Well the shadow part that is associated with my money fears is “ I am stupid and everyone can see that I don’t know what I am doing “ Feeling stupid is a HUGE wound of mine and I know it’s holding me back.
As a kid I couldn’t grasp things easily at school and because of this I felt like I was letting my parents down because my dad was so clever. Of course this wasn’t true. They were proud of me and I simply didn’t grasp these subjects because they didn’t interest me. My conscience mind knows this.
If you are a kid of the 80’s or 90’s you know how brutal teachers could be and various comments from teachers and kids at school would also cement this subconscious belief in me and I’ve been carrying it every since.
So in order to make peace with my little shadow I have to confront it, put it in the open so here it is in all its glory ‘ I AM STUPID AND WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH. PEOPLE CAN SEE RIGHT THROUGH ME AND KNOW THiS TO BE TRUE”
I need to put this out here, as uncomfortable as it is as I believe being vulnerable creates connection and I want to make peace with my little shadow by fully exposing it and being fully authentic and perhaps if you feel this way by me being open you will feel ok to connect and communicate your fears, shadows, beliefs with me.
Always sending love.
M♥️