04/08/2025
I really wasn't looking forward to turning 50! Not because of the number or getting old. Not because I am that person. But because I will be celebrating it without people! Going into another phase, another year, and another time in my life without them by my side supporting me.
But then, this happened! I had to look at this photo, and I realised if I could do this, if I could put my trust in this stranger and this piece of fabric to keep me alive, I could do anything. I just jumped out of a plane so I can do anything! So why have I spent Saturday evening and Sunday morning worrying about skin care and the next steps to help my body!
Fear! Judgement and ruminating! What will people think, what will they say when they see the wrinkles, the saggy skin, and the bulging stomache.
I didn't look perfect for the photos that were taken.
Thankfully, my amazing powerhouse friend came to the rescue and quickly gave me a talking to! Of course, I am not going to look 'perfect' jumping out of a plane, but I did it and had fun!
This is the face of fun. These lines are the laughter lines of fun!So, whilst I am not and never will be perfect, which is what my Dad always taught me. Nobody needs to be!
I no longer need to fear because, like always, I have me! I am and always will be Clare. Everything that I was taught is inside, the love, the strength, and the courage! I trust in me, and I know I have such amazing people around me! 50 is wonderful.
I am still grieving the loss of my loved ones, and that is Ok! There is no time limit! It is a process.
Clare you are enough!
We are enough! Embrace your wrinkles, your laughter lines, your struggles and your pains, and age disgracefully xx
Trustfall, baby!
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