10/12/2025
* THE SACRED CLOSING OF A CYCLE *
I’ve spoken before about the 9-year cycle and how 2025 marks the end of one, and I can feel it in every part of my being.
Nine years ago, life as I knew it fell apart.
Or at least, that’s what I thought at the time.
Back in 2016, everything that no longer fit started to crumble. I ignored the nudges until life itself intervened - the gentle whispers became shouts, and I was forced off the path I thought I had to walk. It felt like chaos, loss and failure. But looking back, I see that nothing was really falling apart. It was all re-arranging itself to bring me home to something truer.
In January 2017, I moved to the countryside. It was the first step toward creating an environment I could actually live in - not one I had to survive. That shift brought exhaustion so deep it felt cellular. I slept more than I lived for a while, and yet that was healing too. I’d been holding everything together for too long. The land, the quiet, and my four-legged companion gave me permission to just be.
Over the years that followed, life slowly rebuilt itself in a way that finally made sense. I learned what peace felt like. I found joy in small things - the wind in the trees, the soil under my hands, the companionship of a dog who didn’t need words to understand. The less I pushed, the more I found myself.
Then came the awakenings - the realisations that the systems we live in don’t always serve us, that the world often encourages conformity over authenticity. I began to see through the noise, to remember truths I must have always known. That awakening brought clarity and bliss, but also tests - moments that stripped away illusion after illusion.
There were losses, heartbreaks, family triggers, and endless mirrors held up to show me what still needed healing. Each time I thought I’d reached a plateau of peace, life asked me to go deeper. Sometimes I met it with grace, sometimes with fury. But each time I returned a little stronger, a little softer, a little wiser.
This year - this final year of the cycle - has felt like another reckoning. My job became uncertain and then disappeared. My mum’s health declined and she entered a care home. It was as though life was once again clearing the ground. But this time, I can see it for what it is. It’s not destruction - it’s completion.
And now, as one cycle closes, I can feel something new stirring. I start a new job in January. Mum is safe. There’s space again - space to rest, to breathe, to let everything that’s happened settle into my bones.
This is the essence of the 9-year energy: it demands release before renewal. It asks us to let go of the weight we can’t carry into the next chapter. It can feel like endings, exhaustion, and heartbreak, but beneath it all, there’s a quiet knowing that something is being made ready.
If you, too, are feeling like everything is falling apart right now, maybe it isn’t. Maybe life is simply realigning you. Maybe the path that’s closing is making room for one that finally fits.
So if you can, let yourself pause. Rest without guilt. Let the tears come. You’re not broken - you’re in between stories. And when the next one begins, you’ll see that all of this was leading you there.
Here’s to the closing of one cycle and the sacred inhale before the next ✨