17/04/2024
10 THINGS I LEARNED IN MY YEAR WITHOUT ALCOHOL
1. Alcohol does not ease your anxiety, it delays it. And when it catches up with you, it has grown in size and weight.
2. Alcohol is not a truth serum; instead it switches off the much-needed filter we all use to run our fleeting thoughts through, before choosing kindness and compassion over the ugly (we all have these harsh thoughts, it’s what you chose to keep (and speak), that makes you you).
3. You are not more fun under the influence, you are just less aware of your surroundings and therefore unable to feel embarrassed. But it is registered somewhere in your consciousness, and waits for you the next day, with teeth this time.
4. Alcohol stops you listening, really listening, to those around you.
5. Alcohol stops you listening, really listening, to yourself.
6. Without alcohol or other influences, you are alone with your feelings. That shouldn’t be as uncomfortable as it is. The harder that seems, the more you need, NEED, to get through it.
7. If mood swings are an issue, alcohol is the main culprit here. The cycle of intoxicated (even slightly) to sober and the gradients in-between, leave the door of your mind open, for much chaos to enter uninvited.
8. Alcohol, and the not having of it, can change the way other people view you and your ‘company’. It is a great way to see who wants you around for real and who just enjoys your camaraderie - in boozy situ.
9. You are still fun. You can still have fun. You can still stay up late, and dance, and laugh at all the antics of your friends. In fact, the buzz of knowing you will be fresh the next day, is almost as heady as the drink once was.
10. Being alcohol free will change your life, it will bring in so much space, so much freedom and so much light. And what it takes away, will pale in comparison. You will be present, really present, wherever you go. And if that is unbearable, perhaps you should not be forcing yourself to go… life is too short, and far too precious.
Donna x