02/08/2022
ON FEAR -
Why do I try so hard?
Why do I hold on so tight?
I fear that if I let go, it will disappear. If I don’t create the outcome, it will never exist. If I don’t make myself valuable, I’ll be alone. If I am not needed, I am nothing. If I’m not doing, I am empty.
I fear space and stillness. I fear stagnation. I fear the things and people I love will not love me back unless they need me.
Need breeds resentment. Want yields love.
Without space, nothing can shift - “paralysed force, gesture without motion
It’s only in letting go that we can know if what we hold is ours to keep.
My patterns make me unknowable. How can we love what we don’t know?
I can sit with discomfort.
I can let go.
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