26/07/2023
FREEDOM
I remember when I was young, in my 20's, I would constantly be watching everything that entered my mouth, when it came to food. Constant calorie counting, stupid diets, you name it. I remember I read this book called "Skinny Bitch" by Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin - I mean seriously? WTF. The name says it all. I went vegan, to vegetarian to pescatarian to everything you've ever heard of. I remember every day being robbed by my obsessive thought patterns around exercise and food. I would go out and think about what I would eat before I got there and avoid bread, pasta and rice like the plague. I did yoga 6 days a week or too much cardio and had zero muscle mass. Oh, how I wish I knew then what I know now. I may not have been anorexic, but this is form of disordered eating and I think a lot of people can relate to this and have experience with having an unhealthy relationship with food.
When I finally got into the fitness industry and learnt how to actually train, my body started to change, and my appetite grew. I threw myself into learning about nutrition, my body, awareness, listening to my signals and I was able to zoom out and see the mental prison I had been living in.
If you have obsessive thoughts about food and exercise know that this is not normal, and it is not healthy. Eating a balanced diet and exercising should be a part of every one's life but it should not consume you. You should be able to skip a few days of exercise if something is happening in your life or eat the occasional burger guilt free and not beat yourself up about it. If you lead life in alignment and balance you won't need to binge, starve yourself or over exercise. You will be able to eat what you want in moderation and be free of obsessive thought patterns and habits.
This photo was taken of me yesterday - burgers are my guilty pleasure and this one was absolutely worth it.