14/07/2025
Why did I just disappear for 2 years? Let me tell you, it wasn't planned, and now writing this, putting myself back into the public eye. It's a lot... there's a pressure to say something meaningful, to be inspirational, or something to that effect. But I'd rather just be real....
As some of you know, I had been struggling with chronic health troubles for well over a decade, mystery illnesses and diagnoses that meant nothing other than 'you're just broken'... this is what put me on this path of introspection, healing, and truth. There was no other path for me. I literally had no choice when the body stopped working, I had to listen. This has been a real journey, and 2 years ago, I heard a very deep, very clear message, and I followed it. I disappeared. I switched off everything, deleted social media, went on aeroplane mode, and sat with myself. I journeyed to places far and wide, I studied sacred texts, I deepened my healing practices, I underwent painful treatments for the body, trained with yogis in the Himalaya, monks in the forests of Sri Lanka, studied with Lanna wisdom women in Thailand, and it was all a challenge, a time for growth, and deeply deeply uncomfortable to meet myself and feel those things I wasn't ready to feel until that exact moment. It continues even now. It's a journey made of many moments, many steps. I'd love to say, "I went on holiday and healed myself ..." But that's not what the work is about. What i can say is that I listened, I disappeared, I took my attention inward, and it's beginning to pay off.
Coming back here to share with the world feels strange to me. The world has changed, I have changed, and everything is in such a rapid and constant state of flux. But I have been given another clear message, to emerge from the silence, to bring myself back into view for those who need to be heard, seen, and held in the deepest love and openness. My service and purpose never stopped, I only did what was necessary to show up in this work more fully, more honestly, more authentically. So, for now, the message was clear, re-emerge. And here I am. What will follow we shall see...
With love and warmth to you all
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