22/02/2019
You know who you remind me of ? - Me! 💭
Everything is just so perfect right now , yet why do I feel so crap? 🤕 I Mean like seriously is his even normal ? Paranoia starts to kick in as if I WANT to spoil the great things that I have!
May be it'll pass ❓
I just wish this knot in my stomach would go , it's overstayed it's welcome❗Does anyone even care ❓ People do have lives ❗
Just because it's happened once doesn't mean it can happen again right ❓I really need to stop thinking everything is doomed ❗Why can't today be like yesterday ❓ Everything was fine yesterday ❗What even is the point ❓ I can't forget why I'm doing this ❗
Don't you remember all the good parts❓I'm thinking the worst , I need to switch my mindset❗HOW can you even trust people ❓ Not everyone's the same ❗Are you going to fall for that trick again❓I need to give it the benefit of the doubt❗
Do they even like you❓You're amazing of course ❗Do you even see yourself in the mirror ❓I look terrible ❗ What are you going to do about it ❓SHUTUP , I just can't be around anyone or anything right now! ❗
I was right wasn't I⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️
My small writing piece on the Internal mental debate that is a daily and some cases constant loop . Any one can submit their stories DM me or post on here . The collection of writing is called Pencil thoughts. ✏💭
For some these thoughts take over life as we know it , In fact it can go by unnoticed as it has become the face of familiarity friend and foe. An unspoken conversation amidst the busyness of the traffic, family gatherings , work meetings , walking down the street and endless scenarios with one common pesticide- Pencil thoughts. They aren't real it's rationalisation of a sort, rumination and they can be controlled with learnt techniques and lots of practice. 🔜😊💪
If this has envoked your curiosity, emotions or is relatable as always send me a ✉ message now, while your thinking about it .
Ps. Didn't have a photo to match the post , so posted on of my favourite moments....