12/03/2026
Week 9 of training
I be lying if I said it’s been easy. This week started bright but ended quite overwhelming tbh.
It’s seems once again I’m questioning how privileged I am to be training for a marathon, yet the world around me feels full of hate, discrimination , fighting and some!
Being on my periods, definitely didn’t help the emotions. What started as a bit of anxiety turned into full on… what the hell am I doing!
On Saturday I lost the ability to even see myself as a runner, I felt so much guilt and equally raged at myself for feeling such a imposter.
I wasnt going to share this. But you know what with marathon training being so glamorous online, I wanted to share the ugly side too!
The crying, the doubt, the crap runs, the loss of appetite, the painful period pain when you have a long run of 30km to do, the juggling the family life with trying to hit them peak weeks, the overwhelming laundry piles of sweaty clothes, the sticky gels scattered in the bottom of your legging pocket… this my friends is the dark side.
I feel every deload week (just like tapering) where the serotonin hit is low, the negativity sets in! Am I right?
Anyway if your in the depths of marathon training, this is reminder your not alone. Even though this will be my 4th marathon, no one gets it 10/10 every week of training. Chin up, we go again :)
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